him. I’m embarrassed to admit it, but my Daddy bought my way in. I’m not as smart as Kellan, but I want to go…with him. We’ll come back and visit…a lot, I promise. My dad will fly us back all the time. I don’t want to keep him from you, really. I just want to be with him, too. Okay? Can we be friends, now? You’ll always be his little sister, he won’t forget about you. He loves you too much.”
“But I’m not really his sister.”
“In his eyes, you are. He couldn’t love you more if you were blood related. I promise I won’t ever stand in the way of your relationship with Kellan, okay?”
She was being so nice…she was nice. She was pretty and sweet, just the kind of girl Kellan deserved…but I still hated her. I couldn’t help it. I tried to like her, and even though she helped me with my current problem, and promised not to keep Kellan from me, I couldn’t find it in my heart to forgive her. But, I loved Kellan, and I wasn’t going to hurt him by being mean to his girlfriend, so I said, “Okay. And, thank you for the pads.”
“You’re welcome. If you have any other questions…you know, girl stuff, you can always ask me.”
“I’m okay now, thanks.”
“Okay. Then let’s go have some lunch,” she smiled. “Oh, I guess I should give you a minute. Um, the pads have tape on the bottom.” She opened the box and handed me a pad, showing me where to take off the paper and then said, “So, you just press it to your panties and change it whenever you need to. I should give you some panty liners too, for lighter days. I’ll get you some things, okay?”
“It’s okay. Kellan said he would.”
“I don’t think he’ll know what to buy. I don’t mind, really.”
She was being nice again, and it made me feel worse about not liking her. But, I just couldn’t like the person who was stealing Kellan from me, even if she wasn’t the reason he was leaving. “Okay, whatever. Thanks.”
I cleaned myself up and we sat down to eat lunch. It was really good, even though I had no idea what I was eating. They had a lot of money, a maid, a cook and a few other people running around doing this or that. I still couldn’t bring myself to look at Kellan and I didn’t want to look at Brianna, so I spent the entire meal looking down at my food.
Brianna’s father and mother were very nice to me, asking me how I liked school, and what my plans were for the rest of the summer. “I don’t have any plans for the summer. I guess I just want to hang out with Kellan until…he leaves,” I said sadly.
I knew Kellan felt bad about leaving me, and I regretted the words the second they left my mouth. Things were quiet after that and finally it was time for us to go home.
Kellan and I walked home together, neither of us saying much of anything. I was still completely embarrassed about the whole bleeding thing and I knew he felt guilty for leaving me with the Filbert’s. The silence was deafening until we walked in the house and were met with glares from Nancy and Joe.
“Where the hell have you two been?” Nancy shouted.
“We were out. Where the hell have you been?” Kellan shouted, no longer afraid of them.
“That’s none of your business,” Joe shot back.
“I know where you were…Vegas. You were out spending our money gambling. Just like always.”
Nancy looked at me and said, “New clothes? Where did you find the money for those…or did you steal them?” she accused.
“Abby wouldn’t steal a penny…she’s nothing like you! You steal every penny the state gives you for us. What are you going to do when they no longer pay you for me? Take in another foster kid?”
“Maybe we will. And, maybe that one will treat us with the respect we deserve.”
“Respect?” Kellan laughed.
“We give you brats a place to live, clothes, food…”
“You didn’t give us anything. When was the last time you bought groceries around here? Abby’s clothes were