sorry. I can only begin to imagine how you feel inside. I just want you to know that I am here and I won’t leave you no matter how you treat me.” He smiles causing me to smile too. I lean my head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. His strong arms wrap around me and the tears start sliding down my cheeks once more. I feel his kisses on the top of my head and I press closer to him. There is one thing I know for sure. This man loves me. Warts and all.
“I’ll take care of myself, tesoro. Starting now.” I lift my face to his and brush my lips against his chin. He responds by lowering his mouth to mine and pulling me into a sweet kiss; one that I can feel down to the tips of my toes. Pushing my body into his, I revel in the sensation of his closeness. I inhale deeply; letting the scent of his cologne and soap from the shower envelop me- it’s absolutely heavenly. How was I so lucky to catch this amazing man? I decide not to question my fortune and just treasure every moment of my life with Enzo.
Enzo backs away from me, a beautiful grin on his face. “Signora, you shouldn’t let me kiss you like that. We need to wait for a while before I can ravish you again.”
“True, but I’m sure when I’m feeling better there are some other things we can do to pass the time.”
“I can wait. It will be difficult, but so sweet once I get back to you. It will be just like when we met all over again, no?”
“I hated that,” I say, crinkling my nose.
Enzo laughs softly. “As did I, amore. Come, let’s get you back into bed.”
“I’ll go. You stay and finish working.” I kiss his cheek and head back to my bedroom for a much needed nap. There is just one more call I need to make before I rest. Gabby.
I dial her number and take a deep breath as I wait for her to answer.
“Hi!” Gabby answers. “I’m so glad to hear from you. I didn’t want to bother you.”
“You are never bothering me. I just needed some time,” I respond.
“I know. So, um, how are you? I don’t know if that is the right thing to ask.”
“It is. I’m holding up, but my moods are all over the place. One minute I’m fine and ready to get on with things, the next I’m a crying mess, and the minute after that I’m angry and lashing out at Enzo.”
“I think that’s to be expected. I’m sure Enzo understands,” she pauses. “I’d love to see you when you are feeling up to it.”
“Yeah, of course. I need my friends around me. I’m gonna nap then I’ll give you a call. How’s that?”
“Perfect. Hey Ava, I love you, girl.”
“I love you too, Gabby. Talk to you soon.”
I’m relieved that wasn’t as bad as I thought it might be. I couldn’t take another teary conversation. I really hope I can get my moods under control and get back to the business of living my life. Climbing back into bed, I look around the room for a moment as sleep begins to overtake me. There is much in my life to be thankful for and I need to make a conscious decision to focus on those things. No one ever said life was fair.
I close my eyes and give in to my body’s desperate need for rest.
“BUON GIORNO, SIGNORA,” Enzo’s soothing voice greets me from the edge of the bed.
I blink my eyes open and smile. Standing over me, with a huge grin on his lips, he holds a striking crystal vase filled with multicolored roses.
“What are those for?” I ask.
“Do I need a reason to give my wife flowers?”
“No, I don’t suppose you do. What time is it?”
“Ten. You slept straight through the night. I think you needed more rest than you knew.”
“Wow! Ten in the morning? Holy crap, I guess so.” I shift and pull myself upright. “I feel like a hermit. I think it’s time for me to get some fresh air and sunlight.”
“Perfetto. I agree with that plan.” He sets the roses down on the nightstand. “I’ve made some coffee and ran out and picked up some more cornetti for you. I do need to make an appearance