pitchfork Iâve ever seenâout of water , with your mind âand then you stabbed Fennrys through the heart with it. Thatâs not stopping someone. Thatâs ending someone.â
Inside the Weather Room, another piteous howl shivered in the air like a warning siren. Cal wondered if Mason realized now, for real , who was the monster and who was the man. The scars on his face tingled and he winced. Heather was still staring at him. He couldnât tell if it was with pity or hate.
I donât care. It doesnât matter. I donât need her .
He had everything he needed in the next room. In Mason. And once she realized thatâand that she and Fennrys could never be together nowâsheâd come to him. Standing between Cal and the doorway to that potential future, Heather smiled sadly, as if sheâd read his thoughts.
âNever gonna happen, sweetie,â she said. âFrankly, Iâll be surprised if she doesnât put that spear she has right through your chest when she gets back. Just to show you what it felt like when you did the same thing to the guy she loves.â
Cal winced. âJeezus, Heather. You really can be a bitch sometimes. You know that?â
âAnd you can be so blind.â She shook her head. âI really hate to say this, Cal, but I think maybe thereâs a whole lot more of your mother in you than youâd care to believe.â
âShut your mouthââ
âOpen your eyes!â Heather almost shouted at him.
She took a deep breath and closed her own eyes for a moment. When she looked at him again, he was shocked by just how much love for him he could still see, filling her gaze. It didnât make any sense, but he was starting to figure out that âsenseâ and âloveâ had very little to do with each other in his world. A wave of bitterness at the absolute, utter unfairness of his situation crashed over him.
âWhatâs happened to you, Aristarchos?â Heather asked, a note of pleading in her voice. âReally. Iâm trying to understand.â
âI donât know how you could,â Cal said. âWeâre not the same. We never have been.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
He shrugged. âMaybe thatâs why I couldnât ever really love you, Heather. Itâs not your fault. Youâre only human.â
He hadnât really meant to say it like that. Like an insult. But thatâs how it soundedâeven to his own earsâand from the look on Heatherâs face, he knew thatâs how it had sounded to her, too. She blinked and took a step back from him and her gaze became suddenly shuttered. Instead of crying or yelling or even looking at him with hurt in her eyes, Heather Palmerston just laughed at him.
âYeah,â she said. âI guess I am. Thank godâor gods , I guessâfor small favors.â Then she turned and walked past him through the door, tossing her hair over her proudly squared shoulders and leaving Cal standing there feeling like he was the lesser being.
VI
âF ennrys?â
No. No no no . . . not Fennrys .
Not this. This wasnât him.
This is not . . . I am not . . .
âFenn?â
The pain was excruciating. A bonfire lit from within. He could feel the thready fibers of every single muscle in his body searing as if flooded with a virulent toxin. His blood wasnât blood; it was flame. It burned him as it coursed through his veins. The were-transformation had triggered something, awoken something deep inside him, and Fennrys didnât know what it was. All he knew was that it was hungry.
The great holes torn in his chest by Calumâs trident throbbed with distant, detached hurt, already healing, flesh and lung and heart all knitting themselves back together. But the deep bite wounds on the sides of his throat were like constellations of agonyâeach puncture a miniature