maneuvers. And thatâs the way Luke was with his flyingâat least thatâs the way he used to be. But all thatâs different now, and I donât like it.â
âWhat sort of change are you talking about?â
âHe seems to have lost his caution is the best way I can put it.â Streak shrugged his beefy shoulders and chewed on his lower lip, his face troubled. âWhen he sees Germans, he just goes right at them with no hesitation, all guns blazing. He doesnât think and plan like he used toâhe doesnât even give the signal for the rest of us to follow.â
âThatâs not what Iâve heard about Winslow. Heâs always been a careful pilot.â
âThatâs not true anymore, sir. Iâm telling you heâs changed. He used to spend a lot of time studying situations, figuring out how to keep his men alive and himself too, of course. But now itâs like he . . .â Streak halted and ran his hand through the stubble of his red hair. âItâs like he just doesnât care about anything anymore.â
The colonel slapped both of his hands down on his desk. âHe needs to go on leave.â
âHe sure does, Colonel.â
âIâll see to it.â
âGood! Itâs not safe for him to be flying anymoreânot until he gets a handle on this thing.â
Colonel Valdez stood. âWeâll miss his leadership, no question about that.â
âHe canât lead if heâs dead, sir.â
âYou think itâs that critical?â
âYes, sir, heâs crazier than that Russian Dubrovskyâwhich I never thought Iâd hear myself say. He doesnât care about anything at all. Heâs going to get himself killed, and thatâs no lie.â
âAll right, then. Thank you for coming to me, Garrison.â
****
As soon as Luke Winslow walked into Valdezâs office, Valdez saw the changes in the man. Valdez had always liked the tall, rangy American, which was unusual for the colonel, who as a rule did not like Americans. But Valdez had seen in this man an attention to duty. It was obvious Winslow hadnât come to Spain merely for adventure, but because he truly believed in the Republican cause.
Winslow had lost a little weight, Valdez thought, but all of them had during these hard days of fighting. There was something different about his mouth and eyes. His mouth seemed tighter, and there was a slight tick in his right eye, revealing a nervousness that had never been a part of Winslowâs makeup. Valdez leaned back and motioned to the chair in front of his desk. âHave a seat, Lieutenant.â
âIâd just as soon stand, if you donât mind, Colonel. I get enough sitting in the cockpit.â
âAs you will.â Valdez tried to think of the best way to approach the matter. He did not know what to say about the death of the manâs fiancée or her family, so he made no attempt. âIâd like you to go on leave, Winslow, starting today.â
âThereâs no need for that, Colonel. Besides, I wouldnât have anywhere to go.â
In his other encounters with the man, Luke Winslow had always had a smile on his face, but he was not smiling now. His face was like stone . . . or steel. Luke apparently hadnât understood that the statement was not merely a suggestion.
âLook, Winslow, thereâs no point mincing words. Your men tell me youâre acting crazy up there. Youâre not yourself. I want you to take a few days off. Or better yet, go home. This war is lost anyway. We both know it.â
âMaybe not.â
âDonât be foolish! Itâs clear that we canât hold out much longer.â
âIf you say so, sir.â
âSo take a few days off.â
âIâm not finished here yet, sir. Iâd like to stay until the end and do what I came for.â
âThat doesnât make any sense.
Jacqueline Druga-marchetti