donât know how I can ever get used to living here.â
âWhat â you can never get used to living in a giant mansion with more rooms than your family could ever need?â Shaniya teases me.
OK, I got that wrong. Like I often get things wrong with her. And I understand â Shaniya lives in a small flat in a not-great estate and has to share a bedroom with her little sister, whoâs pretty severely autistic. I know that, and I always listen to her talk about what her home lifeâs like and sympathize or try to help.
âIâm sorry,â I say, flustered. âI didnât mean it toâ¦â
I drift away, not sure what exactly Iâm apologizing for but feeling bad for my friend anyway.
âLook Iâve got to go,â says Shaniya. âMum wants me. Talk to you later, yeah?â
âYeah,â I reply, but sheâs already gone.
And hearing the empty drone of nobody there, I crumple, feeling light years from home and so, so alone. Except I have Mum, of course. I take a deep breath, and try and steady myself.
I donât care whether Mum is peering down drains or talking toilets with Mr Fraser, I just want to be close to her right now. She might be small, but when Iâm with her, Iâm surrounded by her force field of love, and thatâs a pretty special place to be.
And once weâre alone, I can tell her about the whisperings and the noises Iâve been hearing. Somehow, sheâll make some kind of sense of it all, I know she will.
Scrambling to my feet, I pull the door open and aim for the back stairs.
But then I hear the crunch and roar of a vehicle on gravel, and through the window in the stairwell I see a white van â Mr Fraserâs, presumably â drive off.
Perfect!
So itâs back to just being me and Mum, and itâll be that way for a whole month, till RJâs back from his promotional tour with the band, I remind myself.
Even if Iâm marooned in this strange new world, as long as me and Mum are together, Iâll be OK.
First, of course, I have to find her, in this stupidly huge house.
âMum?â I call out, thundering down the back stairs and opening the door to the warren of kitchen rooms. My heart pitter-patters as I walk over to the doorway of the room with the huge cooking range â but everything is still, quiet as an empty church. Tentatively, I put my hand on the door frame, but thereâs only a reassuring silence.
Turning around, I follow the passageway that leads to the main house. When I came the other way earlier, with Cam right behind me, I was too frazzled to notice the hand-painted, beautifully neat gold lettering on each of the many dark green doors along here.
Servantsâ Hall
,
Cookâs Rooms
,
Scullery
,
Larder
,
Pantry.
I turn the brass handle of each as I pass, but none opens. Rooms to be explored another time, when I get Mum to show me where the keys are.
And now Iâm out in the main house, with four open doors off the wide corridor leading to what used to be the billiard room, the library, the drawing room and the dining room, and are now just cavernous spaces waiting for new life to be breathed into them.
âMum?â I call out again, as I pad along, wondering where she is. And then I see her, past the staircase and in the vestibule. Sheâs by the open front door, and from the way Mumâs head is tilted to one side and her elbow sticks out, I can tell sheâs on her phone.
Practically skipping over to her, I wrap my hands around her waist, as glad as I ever have been to see my gorgeous mother.
But Mum does something sheâs never done before.
She shrugs me off.
âLook â Iâve only
just
got a signal, Ellis, and I donât want to lose it. This is important, OK?â she practically snaps at me.
I donât know what to do, or how to react. Mum being like that towards me ⦠it makes me feel more like Iâm losing my mind