kiss your mouth,
where nothing bad has happened.
Iâm not anyone but I wish I could be told
when you will come to save us. I have written
several poems and several hymns, and one
has been performed on the religious
ultrahigh frequency station. And it goes like this.
The Skewbald Horse
I wish to tell about a time
Thatâs gone,
When I looked at the wheat and thought it was the sea.
I rode to town. The light was gold. I heard them
Speak of the futureâaround them the dogs dreamed.
It was Sunday, and in our town
The church bells then were so arranged
As to play âAmazing Graceâ upon the drugged
Air and clenched hearts of August. And all the time
The wheat in its inlets of honey
Perished and replaced itself imperceptibly
And the horses swam slowly through the fields.
I breathed something thick and terrible
Riding home toward the falling sun, a wild
Musical heat of sorrow and youth that made
A great strength up and down me. I
Was desireâwhat lived in the sad, slow
Thighs of young girls the dull breeze
Pressed their aprons to embrace? The same
Pitchblende dying between mine? Whatever
It was, I believed it whirled the Earth,
In faith and troth, whatever it wasâ
Mingling of phosphor and lodestone
Drawn through our heartsâcaught fire,
And didnât it ride the horse and me, but we
Rode through it also? All
Were in town: I stood in the house of my birth,
In the silence of its sun-struck rooms,
The only house to have known my cries,
The only house to have witnessed these beginnings,
And thought, How far from home!
Whatever it was, I took to sea
To drown itâbut it was only
The downslope of eighteen hundred forty-seven,
The dead-flowery twilight of my nineteenth summerâ
And it set me adrift. The sea
Was not the sea. It was a gray, austere dumb land
Of messages without a word,
Tumbling its seed, holding out its hands
Around our senseless faiths, the faiths that placed us
In this chasm between the torn hopes
Behind us and the hopes, fragile as cobwebs, on the other shore.
Watch on and watch off, in the green illumination
Froth cast unreasonably out of dark water, I sighted
Our lesser selves ever attending our passage,
The demons, the criminals, the fools
We demonically, criminally, foolishly believed
Lay back of us: it wasnât to ferry cargo but to create
Jetsam that weâd put ourselves in danger.
And when weâd arrived, whatever it wasâ
The time, it was the timeâ
Drove me to cheat my brothers, to search
The purses of my mates while the merchant
S.S. John Adams slept in St. Georgeâs Channel,
To forge my name to the bill of lading,
To steal my captainâs skewbald quarter stallion
And strike across the Irish countryside.
Our fourth day in that country
Brought us to the thick of Kildare County,
A Yankee sailor on a stolen quarter horse,
The sailor in rags and waving a bill of lading
For a hold of goods, the horse consumed
And starved and marked such as no Irishman
Could rememberâskewbald, heâd be named
In Boston, where our captain
Had traded for him before I stole himâ
And the several tribes
Gathered for a festive day of races laughed
Inside their whiskers at this creature and scraped bare
Their birthrights to wager against him.
Their eyes like sapphires strewn in the sun,
Their purses sighing and crying along their bellies,
The spittle doing a jig along the strands
Of their old beards: the men
Of the large-boned clans had black hair
That came up out of the throats
Of their shirts and ate their faces,
While the little fellows like me were of a blonder
More shall we say humanified strain of farmer,
But all were truly horsemenânever having to touch
Their animals but always smelling just like them,
Telling a horseâs life and death in a hoof,
Everyone wagering with a loud word
On some half-extinguished, half-Highlands nag
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