finale of fireworks exploded beyond the lake. They lay together, their breathing fast and laboured as the sweat dried on their bodies and pink and gold stars cart wheeled through the blue infinity above.
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It had rained in the night.
Getting up from the crumpled bed Lily had gone to the window and looked out onto a cool world of silver and green. The rain had fallen in sheets, turning the glassy surface of the lake misty.
As she looked out of the window of the Jeep as it rattled over the arid African plane just a little over twenty-four hours later it was almost impossible to believe that she hadnât dreamed it. Hadnât dreamed that cool lushness; hadnât dreamed turning away, crossing the floor back to the bed where Tristan lay, his arm thrown across the place where sheâd been lying.
Hadnât dreamt the expression of torment on his face.
And as sheâd watched him heâd cried out, a harsh, bitter shout of anger, or of pain, and without thinking Lily had slipped back beneath the sheets beside him, cradling his beautiful head against her, stroking him, murmuring soothing, meaningless, instinctive sounds into his hair until the room had reassembled itself in the grey light of dawn and she had felt the tension leave his body.
Then she had got quietly out of bed and put on her silk dress and slipped silently out the door and down the stairs. He hadnât reminded her about the Heathrow terminal, as heâd so jokingly promised. He hadnât woken up to say goodbye.
The Jeep stopped at the camp. The heat was already almost beyond endurance, the air thick with the dust thrown up by their convoy of vehicles. Getting stiffly out, Lily wondered whether she was strong enough to face what lay ahead.
She bent her head, closing her eyes for a second and running her tongue over dry lips.
But she had found the strength to walk away from the tower yesterday morning.
If she could do that, she could do anything.
CHAPTER FOUR
London, six weeks later.
âC ONGRATULATIONS, Miss Alexander .â
Lily looked uncomprehendingly into the smiling face of the doctor. She had come here expecting an explanation for why she had felt so awful since picking up a stomach bug on her trip to Africa just over a month ago, but Dr Lee looked as if he was about to tell her sheâd won the lottery, not contracted some nasty tropical disease.
She frowned. âYou have the test results back?â
âI have indeed. I can now confirm that you donât have malaria, yellow fever, hepatitisâ¦â he let each sheet of flimsy yellow lab paper drift down onto the desk between them as he went through the sheaf of test results ââ¦typhoid, rabies or diptheria.â
Lilyâs heart sank.
It wasnât that she wanted a nasty tropical disease, but at least if she knew what was causing the constant, bone-deep fatigue, the metallic tang in her mouth that made everything taste like iron filings, then maybe she could do something about it. Take something to make it go away, so she could start sleeping at night instead of lying awake, hot and breathless, fighting the drag of nausea in the back of her throat and trying not to think of that other night. Of Tristan Romero.
She shook her head, trying to concentrate. That was anotherthing that was almost impossible these days, but with huge effort she dragged her mind back from its now-familiar refuge in a twilit tower, a moon-bleached bedâ¦
She had to put that behind her. Forget.
âIâm sorry, I donât understand. If all the tests have come back negative, then whatâ?â
âAh, not quite all the tests show a negative result. There was one that has come back with a resounding positive.â Dr Lee folded his hands together on the desk and beamed at her. âYouâre pregnant, Miss Alexander. Congratulations.â
The walls seemed to rush towards her, blocking out the bright September sunshine outside, compacting the