through my head. Iâd never be the one to make her laugh so hard, soda shot out of her nose. Or pry her hands from her eyes during The Blair Witch Project . Weâd never go on the Zipper at the St. Maryâs carnival so many times in a row weâd want to hurl. Memories. Packed up tight in a little box, shoved away like the cards. Done.
âI want you to be happy, Hannah. I just donât want to see it,â I said, backing away. I saw in her eyes this was a direct hit. They sharpened, lost just a bit of their light.
I resisted the urge to apologize, and left.
THREE
MADISON
YEARBOOK WAS MOSTLY PAINLESS, EXCEPT WHEN we had our bimonthly deadline meetings. Piper Murray, editor in chief, liked to call them âsocialsâ to make them sound more fun, but they were really just deadline check-ins with Chips Ahoy! and Red Bull. The yearbook office was a forgotten room in the basement of Sacred Heart. On any given day, the heat either blasted or was nonexistent, and the awful fluorescent lighting made everyone look like zombie apocalypse survivors. At least we didnât have to share it with another club.
We sat around a long table, noshing on cookies and waiting for Piper, who was busy staring at her bulletin board of multicolored Post-its with the same concentration you would expect from a warlord devising a plan of attack. I entertained myself by continuing a mehndi-inspired floral design Iâdstarted earlier in the day on the back of my hand with a dark brown Koh-I-Noor pen.
I was officially on design staff and didnât need to be at both monthly editorial meetings, but it was cool hanging out with Jazz and Wren. The three of us were in the running for editor positions next year when we were seniors. Aside from looking excellent on my college app, being in charge of design was something I couldnât wait to sink my teeth into. I figured an interest in every facet of production would help my cause.
Piper grabbed a neon-blue Post-it and planted it on the desk next to me.
It had Sadie Hawkins Dance written in bold letters.
âWhatâs this?â I finished the vine on my hand with a spiral and looked up.
âMarissa Teller was originally supposed to handle the Sadie Hawkins Dance section, but sheâs going on a ski trip with her family. I need you to take photos for the layout.â
Wren covered her mouth but failed to conceal a quickly growing grin.
âThis is your doing,â I said, pointing at her. She had already tried to rally both Jazz and me to go to the dance since she was working it for Spirit Club.
âNo, swear,â she said, raising her right hand. âIâm writing the copy for the section. Although, I thought Jazz could help tooâthere should be a sidebar with the history of the dance, donât you think?â
Jazz glared at Wren over her laptop. Once something was said in front of Piper, there was no turning back.
âWhen is this?â I asked.
âNext Friday.â A chorus of voices around the table answered.
âI donât get the whole Sadie Hawkins thing; I mean, technically, since weâre an all-girls school, isnât every dance a Sadie Hawkins dance?â Jazz asked.
âTrue, but stillâwe need this. Between winter and midterms, this dance is the only social event until prom. Itâs way better than some Valentineâs BS with balloon hearts,â Piper said. âMaybe you could somehow work that angle in the copy. Wren, how were you thinking of incorporating the theme?â
Wren shuffled through a couple of the pages in her notebook, stopped at one and put her finger on it. âI was thinking âOn the Edge of . . . Romanceâ?â
âToo banal,â Piper said, waving her hand. âDig deeper, what were you going to write about? I want it to be more than just the basic âThere was a band and cupcakes.ââ
âOf course. I planned on interviewing couples to see