her Fringie to her stomach. I asked, âWhat happened?â
Berkeley Sims stepped forward and said, âMaybe you can tell us.â
âWhat do you mean?â
Ashley exchanged a knowing smile with Berkeley before saying, âThat mess was not here when we left, and you were the only one in the cabin.â
I opened my mouth to answer, but I couldnât speak. I hopped over the lowest rung of the ladder and made my way up to my bunk, holding on to both rails of the ladder so that they could not see me shaking.
Looking like two low-wattage infrared bulbs, Aliciaand Blair came over. Stacey and Kaitlin joined them, and then, as if on some unspoken signal, the six of them formed a semicircle and stood shoulder to shoulder at the foot of the bed, giving as wide a berth to the pool of vomit as the space between the beds allowed. I donât know who said âClean it upâ first. Maybe it was Kaitlin, but it could have been Ashley. I looked around from face to face. They returned my stare, and in that brief exchange of looks, I saw it happen. I saw them change from nasty to vicious. Right before my eyes they closed in, silently at first. Then they linked arms at their shoulders, and with the precision of a line of Radio City Rockettes, they started chanting, âClean it up, clean it up, clean it up.â
I was no longer shaking. I was frozen in place. My blind inner self must have told me that they were beyond reason, beyond logic. Anything I could have saidâhad I been able to speakâwould not convince them otherwise. I sat up there on my bed and watched them invent their rage. They had become a warrior gang. They needed a victim. Me.
They picked up a rhythm. âClean it up, clean it up, clean it up, up, up.â
In a groupthink pause between chants, Gloria came in.
They shut up and quickly dropped arms.
Gloria assumed the girls were gathered around my bunk out of concern for Heather. âHow is she?â she asked. The girls broke up to let Gloria through. She sidestepped the base of the ladder and sat down on the edge of Heatherâs bed, just where Mrs. Kaplan had sat earlier. She said, âJakeâs over in the mess hall. Why donât one of you go tell him what happened. Heâll know what to do.â
Ashley volunteered to go, but not before exchanging a vile smile with Kaitlin and Alicia.
That evening when Gloria came back to the cabin, I sat up in my bunk and sang âGod Save the Queen.â I sang all five verses all the way through and then sang them all the way through again.
I was looking out the window, but I was seeing nothing. I was thinking about the three kinds of
we:
The plural
we,
the editorial
we,
and the royal
we.
I could thank my id, the part of my psyche that is totally unconscious, for knowing that Mrs. Kaplan thought she was a queen. My subconscious knew even before I did that the woman thinks she is a royal
we.
It was my id that instinctively chose âGod Save the Queenâ as the song I should sing. I started to hum it.
Uncle asked, âWhat are you singing, Margitkám?â
âThe same song that I sang yesterday.â
âWhat song was that?â
âThe British national anthem. I started singing it yesterday afternoon. Later, I sang it sitting up in my bunk.â
âAlways the same song?â
âAlways âGod Save the Queen.ââ In a weak tremolo I began:
âGod save our gracious Queen,
Long live our noble Queen,
God save the Queen!
Send her victorious,
Happy and glorious,
Long to reign over us;
God save the Queen!â
âWhere did you learn that?â
âSixth grade. My language arts teacher was an Anglophile. She made us learn five verses. She said there was a sixth, but she didnât like it, so we only learned five. Listen to the second verse. Itâs my favorite.â
âO Lord our God arise,
Scatter her enemies
And make them fall,
Confound their