delivered this morning. I gave it to your husband not ten minutes ago,â she chirps, no doubt still thrilled by the encounter.
I grip my phone, my vision growing spotty, and I fight hard to stay upright. I picture Rory, arriving in a swirl of activity, making his way straight to the hotel room, where heâll catch up on emails, phone calls, and review his speech. At some point, heâll remember the FedEx package. It wonât matter that itâs addressed to me. I can see him opening it, peering inside at the tightly bound packets of cash. Reaching in and pulling out the plain envelope that holds my new driverâs license, passport, credit cards, and other forged documents. His eyes scanning the nameâ Amanda Burns âthen landing on the picture of me. And a letter, stamped and addressed to him in New York, explaining everything.
âMrs. Cook?â The womanâs voice jerks me back into the present. âCan I help you with anything else?â
âNo,â I say, my voice no more than a whisper. âThat will be all.â I disconnect, letting my mind sort through the other possibilities. I could go somewhere else. Simply walk up to the counter and purchase a ticket to Miami or Nashville. But that would leave an electronic trail. All the cash Iâd planned on using to erase my tracks is in Detroit. With Rory.
I scroll through my contacts until I find it. Ninaâs Nail Salon on Park Avenue, with Petraâs number linked to it.
She answers on the third ring.
âItâs me. Claire.â Suddenly aware of the people around me, I lower my voice and explain what happened. âRory changed the plans. Heâs sending me to Puerto Rico. And, Petra.â I can barely say the words. âHeâs in Detroit.â Iâm desperately tryingâand failingâto control my mounting hysteria.
âOh my god,â Petra breathes.
âI called the hotel there. They already gave the package to Rory.â I swallow hard. âWhat am I going to do?â
The security line inches forward, and I move with it. On the phone, Petraâs quiet as she thinks. âGet back outside and catch a cab here. You can stay with me until we figure something else out.â
Iâm just a few people away from the front of the line, my options shrinking with every minute that passes. Once Rory discovers what I was planning, he will lock down all of our accounts until he has me home again. My thoughts fly back in time, to the last time I tried to leave. I imagine the two of us at home, the evidence of what I was about to do spread before me, and what will surely happen next. Perhaps he might even follow the instructions I gave him in my letter, releasing a statement announcing our split and requesting the world respect my privacy, flipping my own plan against me. Itâs possible Iâve written my own suicide note.
âItâs too close,â I tell her. âSomeone will see me and tell him.â
âI live at the fucking Dakota. No one comes up if I donât want them to.â
âSo do at least three of Roryâs friends,â I remind her. âHe is going to pull my entire life apart and study it. My bank cards. Credit cards. And cell phone records, which will now lead him straight to you. To Nico. And me, if I try to hide there.â My gaze slides over the uniformed TSA agents directing people left and right toward X-ray machines. There are only three people ahead of me in line. âI think my chances of disappearing are better in Puerto Rico,â I say. âSo much is still off the grid after the hurricane. People will be more receptive to cash and wonât ask a lot of questions.â But what I donât say is how hard that will be with almost no money, on an island with limited exit points. I canât do it without some kind of help. I know I promised I wouldnât, but I have to ask. âDoes Nico know anyone down