that Violet isnât being forced to perform like a trained monkey, a small part of me is disappointed. Because hearing her play would feel like home right now.
The tears that well up in my eyes catch me off guard and I blink them back. This is no time for crying.
The conversation continues about our abilities. It turnsout Blondie is a dancer. Cranky Face doesnât seem to have any skills, but the Countess brags about my talent at mathematics as if she actually knew something about me besides the fact that I donât like pain and I have a temper. They talk about us like we canât hear them, like weâre not there.
By the end of the dinner, I donât have the energy to be angry anymore. Iâm just exhausted.
The women all kiss one anotherâs cheeks as the ladies-in-waiting bring in their cloaks. My heart sinks at seeing Frederic again. I keep my gaze focused on Violet and hope that the âno accessoriesâ rule holds so she doesnât have to see me shackled and blindfolded.
I will see her again. Weâre both in Founding Houses. I will see her again.
I think she smiles at me with her eyes.
Once Iâm back in the foyer, the chains come out.
The other surrogates are put on leashes, too, but no one else wears manacles and a blindfold.
I do get a glimpse of what Iâve been riding around in. Itâs a sleek black motorcar, the kind Iâve only ever seen in magazines, and I have to admit, itâs gorgeous.
We drive around in circles again, and then Iâm led back into the palace of the Stone, a palace I havenât even seen yet.
Halls. Stairs. I can smell the dungeon before we reach it, the air growing stale and musty. The blindfold comes off, along with the leash and handcuffs, and Iâm forced back into the golden birdcage.
I want to scream something at Frederic, but heâs out the door before I can even draw breath.
Iâm so thirsty, but thereâs still only the lone bowl ofwater inside my cage. I sigh and move to pick it up.
Itâs stuck.
I pull and pull, but it must be soldered to the floor.
I grit my teeth, hold back the tears, and bend over the bowl, lapping up the water with my tongue.
Five
I WAKE TO THE SOUND OF GROANING HINGES AND A DULL ache in my neck.
I must have slept on it wrong, though Iâm not sure thereâs a right way to sleep on a stone floor.
âGood morning,â Emile says. I sit up and rub my eyes, slippery with last nightâs makeup. I look down; Iâm still in the same dress, too. Now itâs wrinkled and dirty.
Good , I think. I rub my eyes a little more, smearing eye shadow and mascara over my cheeks.
âNever mind about the dress,â Emile says. âYou wonât wear anything more than once.â
âI wasnât worried,â I say, only half paying attention.
My eyes are focused on his hands. Heâs carrying a silverdish with a matching cover and it looks like food. My stomach roars. Emile hears it.
âYes, I imagine you didnât get to eat much at the Duchess of the Lakeâs dinner party last night.â
Somewhere in my brain, I note that Violetâs mistress is the Duchess of the Lake. But most of my mind is occupied with what might be underneath that silver cover. Emile opens the top half of the door to my cage and hands me the tray. I grab it, too hungry to be embarrassed, and throw the cover off. It hits the gold bars with a dull clang.
I stare at the tray, confused. There are exactly three peas, one slice of red apple, a bowl of clear broth, and half an onion roll.
My brain wants to be angry, but my stomach just wants everything in my mouth. I start with the rollâit is hot and fresh and oniony. Then the broth, which tastes salty and thin. Then the apple, crisp and sweet.
I donât eat the peas. They feel like a reminder of the rules last night. Screw the Countess and her rules.
Emile watches me with an impassive expression, until I wipe my