fifteen years ago when everyoneâs life changed.
âGood afternoon, Miss India. Please come in.â
The door swung open and India stepped over the threshold into the darkened room. The familiar fragrance of roses and dust greeted her. Such an old smell, and Mama wasnât old; just trapped in the misery of the past, unable to move on.
Anya did her best to keep the rooms clean while Mama insisted everything should remain untouched. She sat statue-like in the bath chair, her profile gaunt and her body frail beneath the white gown and shawl. Staring out of the window she swung the old metal cradle and fingered the mourning locket she wore on a chain around her neck.
âGood afternoon, Mama.â India walked over to the bath chair and dropped a light kiss on her smooth, pale cheek.
Mamaâs eyes flickered although her attention remained fixed beyond the window. India could clearly remember the last time sheâd held her motherâs attention. The occasion of her fifth birthday. The cook, the old stud masterâs wife, had baked a cake for her birthday, full of blueberries from the garden. No-one had ever had their own cake before, made especially for them. It had made her feel so special, so loved. Mama looked straight into her eyes across the table, then stood and brought the knife tied with a ribbon to her. Theyâd allowed her to cut it, and everyone had clapped.
âMama, weâve had a very successful day. The new man has arrived and weâve spent hours working around the stables. Weâve even given the inside walls a lime wash. Theyâre sparkling like new.â The false joviality she forced into her voice snatched at her throat, competing with the memories.
She understood Papaâs despair. In one fell swoop everything heâd cherished and worked for had vanished. Misery had gouged the heart out of the homestead and the property, sucking every ounce of life from him until he became as much a shadow as her mother.
It wasnât until she returned from school in Sydney that the enormity of Papaâs despair had become apparent, her home reduced to such a shell of despondency. It made her heart bleed. Encouraging Papa to return to the city and his shipping business, she pledged to return Helligen to the home it had once been. Besides, she had a responsibility to Mama. One day she would regain her senses and return to the vibrant woman of Indiaâs childhood.
Receiving no answer India turned, as always, to Anya, the one person who understood. âHave you everything you need? Is there anything I can do?â
Anyaâs hand grazed her shoulder and she shook her head. âIt has been a pleasant day. We have talked of past times and remembered old friends.â
India listened to the words, knowing them by heart. Tears stung her eyes; there were so many conversations she wished she could have with Mama, so much sheâd missed. Thank goodness Anya had the patience to deal with Mamaâs delusions. Day after day they sat staring out of the window recreating the events that had changed everyoneâs lives forever.
âI saw Goodfellow.â
India jumped at the unexpected words. Anyaâs hand tightened on her shoulder before reaching out to smooth her motherâs greying hair. âThere, there, Miss Laila. Hush now. Donât concern yourself.â
For a reason India didnât understand she stilled Anyaâs hand. âDid you, Mama?â Her voice snagged; she didnât want to upset her mother but all the same she couldnât let the first inkling of communication between them pass. The granite slab marking Goodfellowâs grave stood alongside Oliverâs beneath the fig trees. Mama often sat on the stone bench there, staring into the distance.
âA man was riding him near the lagoon.â Mama ran her finger and thumb over the chain around her neck, the constant reminder of all sheâd lost.
India met Anyaâs
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