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âAnd what makes you think she wonât believe you?â
The boy snorts. âSome days I wish I didnât believe me, either.â
âWould you like to tell me all about it?â the psychotherapist asks. The boy glares at her with a suspicious eye. One hundred and twelve, one hundred and thirteen.
âAnd whatâs going to stop you from putting me in the crazy bin if I do?â he accuses.
âIâll believe that itâs something you believe,â the woman says, and believes her own lie. âAnd if youâre worried about me telling anyone else, I wonât. Everything you say in this room will be strictly confidential. Not even your father has to know. The only reason for me to divulge information to anyone is if I have reason to believe that you are a danger to yourself or to the community, and I believe you are not a threat.â
The boy considers this for a few minutes, then laughs. It is not a humorous sound.
âSometimes when I look in mirrors, I see a strange lady.â
To her credit, the woman does not blink.
âSheâs in a black dress, and she wears a mask. All she does is watch me, and not with that Iâve-got-a-crush-on-you kind of stare. Less infatuated, more homicidal. I always get this feeling like sheâs waiting for something, but I donât know what that is. She pops up in places I donât expectâmirrors, usually. Sheâs fond of mirrors, unfortunately. If that makes me crazy, then you better have a straitjacket ready, because thatâs the truth.â
âI see.â The womanâs voice does not change. She picks up her cup again. âHow long have you been seeing this lady?â
âI donât know. For as long as I can remember, I guess. Maybe since I was five, six years old. Sometimes I donât see her for months at a time, but now I see her almost every day, especially after moving here. Itâsâhave you ever had the sensation of feeling eyes looking at you, except you know theyâre not really eyes?â
Even the womanâs detachedness hesitates at such a description. âAnd youâve never told anyone about this?â
âDadâs got some fuzzy notion about whatâs been getting my goat, but he doesnât believe me. He never does. He thinks Iâm imagining things. Itâs hard to talk to him about anything, really.â The boyâs tone is surly. One hundred and twenty-eight, one hundred and twenty-nine.
âHas anyone else ever seen her?â
âIâm not sure. I donât think so.â
âWhat about Callie?â
âSometimes Callie looks at me funny, like she knows thereâs something wrong. But sheâs never said anything. And I donât want her knowing, anyway. Whatever this is, I want her out of it.â
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âHello, Sandra,â the teacherâs assistant says.
The girl smiles back at her but says nothing. The young woman takes the swing beside hers.
âI was wondering about this woman you told me about. The woman standing behind Tarquin.â
âOh, that woman,â the girl says. She stops swinging. âThe lady with the funny mask.â
âA mask?â
âI thought it was a face at first, but itâs not. It has holes instead of eyes.â
âWhy donât you like her?â
âBecause sheâs in prison. And sheâs been trying to get out.â
This does not make much sense to the young teacher, so she tries again. âWhen did you first see this woman?â
âWhen Mister Tarquin came to class. He doesnât like her, either.â
âWhy donât you like her?â
âBecause she wants to hurt Mister Tarquin. She wants to hurt me. She wants to hurt everybody. Except she canât. Not while sheâs still in prison.â
âSandra,â the young woman says. She pauses, trying to frame the question right.
Katlin Stack, Russell Barber