has been in the city most days, measuring the society ladies for winter hats.â He yawned. âItâs been so tiresome watching Mae study all weekend. I donât think Iâll ever understand why sheâs so enthusiastic about teaching.â
âHow can you not? Itâs the same as you with your painting, me with my writing, Alevia with her playing, Bess with herââ
âYes, I see.â Franklin cut me off, eyeing the robe draped over my arm. âThank god youâre taking a bath. You smell terrible.â I rolled my eyes and started down the hallway.
âSo do you,â I called out. âThough in your case I donât think you can helpââ
âVirginia.â Charlie materialized from nowhere, grabbed my hand, yanked me into my motherâs room, and shut the door. The last word of my retort to Franklin caught in the back of my throat, choking me. I swallowed it away.
âHowâd you get in here?â I asked evenly. Wedged in the narrow doorway, I could feel the heat of his body inches from mine and smell his light piney sweat beneath his jacket.
âFunny, Gin,â Franklin yelled, having no idea Iâd been detained on my way to the bathroom. Charlie didnât respond and I pushed past him, lunging for the door, but he seized my shoulders and pulled me back into the room, hands digging into my skin. I hadnât looked at him yet, beyond a glance when heâd startled me, and didnât now as I shoved against his chest, trying to free myself.
âI waited until Mae went back to the study and Frank went into your room,â he grunted, struggling against me.
âWhat do you want? Fraââ I started to scream for my brother, but Charlieâs hand clamped across my mouth and forced my face to his. I closed my eyes.
âGinny, please,â he whispered. âCanât you just look at me?âI swallowed hard, let the tension drop from my shoulders, and opened my eyes. His eyes were rimmed with black circles so dark they made the green seem luminous. The hair on his face was long, save a patch on the right side of his chin where heâd never been able to grow it. I mustâve winced, because he loosened his grip on my shoulders. He looked almost as awful as I knew I did. âThat bad?â he said, and laughed under his breath. His fingers peeled back from my mouth, sliding slowly over my lips. I closed my eyes, letting my head drop onto his chest. His heart thumped wildly against my earâa complete contrast to the hands slowly tangling in my hair and drifting up and down my back. I felt drowsy, as though I could fall asleep against him, but he shifted suddenly, smoothed my hair back, and kissed my forehead. As if his lips had broken some sort of spell, I jerked away from him. I couldnât believe Iâd let him touch me, that Iâd forgotten his abandonment so quickly. I crossed the room to the rippled glass window, past the photo of my father as a young man wearing my grandfatherâs Union army jacket on the dresser, knowing that if my father had been here he wouldâve been furious with Charlie and demanded I stand my ground.
âGinny, Iâm sorry.â I didnât turn around, but stared out at the night sky and then down to the darkened window of the Aldridgesâ library. Iâd noticed that the library lamps hadnât been lit since the party, and hoped that his lack of work had something to do with missing me, that he couldnât create without confronting my memory. âYouâve been avoiding me. Iâve come to see you every day.â I pinched my eyes shut and lifted a shoulder. âWhy? Where . . . where have you been?â With you, I thought, remembering the lifetime Iâd written in my notebook.
âI was writing,â I said. âWhy are you here?â
I turned to face him. He stared at his hands, opening and closing his grandfatherâs