Jack yanked a chair closer, sitting so he was inches away, his blue eyes worried as he gripped her arms tightly, keeping her upright. âIâm here. Look at me.â
âIâm . . . okay,â she rasped, but she wasnât. âMemory knot,â she whispered, and Jackâs eyes widened in fear. One hand still supporting her, he turned to the stairway. Swallowing hard, she silently agreed. When things go wrong, you minimize, and things had gone wrong.
Memory knots were nasty little snags of unremembered thought triggered by scent and images. On its own, a memory knot was frightening enough, but if it was attached to a rewrite and left unattended, it could lead to a MEP, memory-eclipsed paranoia, as the twin timelines lurking in her subconscious fought to be remembered. Anchors didnât have a problem remembering twin timelines, but drafters . . . Drafters would quickly lose their mind. It was an anchorâs jobâapart from doing half of everything elseâto bring back one clean memory for a drafter to find closure with.
That a memory knot had snarled up before Jack had even had a chance to defrag her memory didnât bode well. Something had happened, something so bad that her mind was fighting to remember it. Killing a guard to save her life wasnât enough. It was something else.
Itâs a list, lovely woman , she recalled, and the taste of chocolate and whiskey rose anew. âWe need to go,â she said, light-headed as she slid from the stool. âJack, I want to go home.â
Home was eight hundred miles to the north, but anywhere would be better than this.
âRight. Okay.â Jackâs arm slid around her, holding her upright without looking obvious about it. His eyes went to their cue sticks, and she made a small sound.
âDonât you dare leave them. Hand me my purse,â she said, and he nodded, steadying her as she found her chancy balance and pushed through the dizzying sensation of memory trying to beat its way to the surface.
She hardly recognized the stairway, Jack almost carrying her down.
âGoing out for a smoke!â Jack said loudly to the doorman, and he opened the door for them. âDonât give our table away.â
But Peri knew they werenât coming back.
The door to the club shut behind them, and Peri looked up in the muffled thump of music and the damp February night. She flushed, embarrassed. She hadnât passed out, but it was like being afraid of ghosts. âIâm okay,â she said softly, and Jack shook his head, his expression in the streetlight hard as they made their way to the car.
âMemory knots are dangerous,â he said, pace slow. âWe head back now. Iâm driving.â
âI said Iâm okay,â she protested, not liking the fuss.
âI never said you werenât,â Jack said. âBut weâre still going back.â
âFine,â she grumbled as she found her balance and pulled away. The fresh air had revived her, but she still felt foolish, and Jack refused to leave her side, even when they found her Mantis right where theyâd left it.
âIn you go,â he said as he opened the passenger-side door for her, the biometric lock recognizing him and releasing. The car chimed a happy greeting as she sighed, fingers shaking as she slid into the leather cushions. The door thumped shut with the sound of money well spent, and with her purse on her lap, she reached to start the car with a push of a button. The warming engine rumbled to life with a satisfying growl and, ignoring the onboard computerâs cheerful greeting and question whether it should prepare to register a new driver since she was in the passenger seat, she hit the button for the heated seats and turned off the music as Jack broke their cues down and dropped them in the trunk.
She didnât like leaving her car on the street. Not that anyone could steal it, but the