birds.
One morning as he was standing at the water's edge,
nosing around for fish the otter had left, the stones shifted.
When he tried to pull himself up one of his hind legs was
caught. It was a long time before he managed to free himself,
and then only with great effort and intense pain.
The soreness stayed with him. The collapse of the stones
was a longer-lasting lesson than the reprimand of the owl. He
walked on three legs, hobbling and hopping when he had to.
During this period his corkscrew tail was often limp. He
didn't go lame, but when the wound healed he had a bump
on his hock that he often licked. When the mornings were
cold and rainy the pain reawakened. He grew accustomed to
it. The pain became part of him, just like the bump.
He knew what to expect from the owl. When she
plunged, gilding on outspread wings, he should keep out of
the way. The owl and the stones.
There were other things that didn't reveal themselves. He
no longer ambled along as he'd done as a pup, absentminded
and eager. He crossed open spaces quickly, hunching
down, his entire body tense from listening. When the
summer heat hung over the pasture and the murmur of bird
calls died out towards morning, he was a thin, muscular dog
who often stood by a birch or a rowan, letting the shadow of
the leaves play across his dark mask and slanted eyes as if he
were aware of them and wanted to conceal them so they
wouldn't give him away. He avoided the rustling aspens,
which interfered with listening, and he avoided the side of
the point near the rapids except for an occasional early
morning foray to sniff for fish scraps.
More and more often, he followed the trail of the moose. It
served no purpose but felt compelling. His eagerness had no
direction, no goal, and always left him bewildered. But the
scent took him farther and farther from the little world near the
cabin that he knew so well: the marsh, the pasture, the point.
He found his way to other marshes, to rocky terrain covered
with bog moss, dark forests with wood grouse, swampy shores
of dark, unfamiliar lakes. Above him a buzzard screeched.
He always caused a commotion. Birds flew up in front of
him with piercing shrieks that went on for a long, long time.
That could mean eggs. He searched, nose to the grass, letting
the shrieks guide-him. When they grew loud and anguished
he was close, when they died out he'd lost the trail.
Now there were bodies inside the eggs. Most of the time,
though, only the shells were left; the warm, moist contents
were gone. He wasn't interested in the shells. The young that
had hatched by the shore fled to safety in the water, leaving
tiny rippling wakes on the smooth surface. He tested the
wetness with his paw but didn't like it. Once he'd plunged in
after them, but when his paws no longer touched bottom he
couldn't see across the water. He paddled, but no matter how
far he stretched his neck he didn't catch sight of anything
alive, so he turned back to land, shook himself thoroughly
and loped off without looking back.
While following the moose trail, he'd come across a body
of water not far from the marsh. He began including it in his
daily rounds. Each time he went there and walked around
the shore he was less tense and hunched down.
It was a tarn, black and almost round, quite near the big lake.
A brook made its way down through the dense forest of old
spruce, bringing water from the tarn to the larger lake, an
inland sea with cold, restless blue water that never was silent.
The beavers had made a dam in the brook. Along the far
bank the spruces and small pines were turning yellow. On his
side the banks were steeper. Though the soil was full of passageways
the ground held; water hadn't reached the roots of
the trees and they were still healthy. In the passageways the
scent of beaver was strong.
In the evening the steep side was sunny and he lay there in
a dense thicket of crowberry brush and
Alexandra Ivy, Laura Wright