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turn.”
    “I love old tv shows. When I moved in with the Kleins, I got in the habit of watching Nick at Night with Ruth. I Love Lucy is my favorite.”
    “I so cannot picture you watching I Love Lucy .” She laughed.
    “It’s true, I’m a sucker for Lucille Ball . She cracks me up.” I shrugged.
    “I like that, it’s a different side of you.” She put her hand on mine in the sand.
    “Who is your best friend?” I asked.
    “Taryn. We’ve been friends since elementary school. She’s helped me through a lot. I used to sleep over at her house a lot before moving in with Frank.”
    I wanted to ask more about what had happened before Frank, but I figured it was best to keep things light for now. I didn’t want her asking questions I wasn’t ready to answer either.
    “Was she at the party tonight?”
    “Yeah, but she was off somewhere with her boyfriend Danny. They’re always fighting and making up. I can’t even remember if this was a fight or a makeup night. What about you?”
    “My best friend from back home is James. I met him right when I moved to New York. He’s a good guy, I still talk to him a few times a week. He goes to school back there.”
    “Can I ask you a question?” She turned to look at me.
    “Sure, isn’t that what we’re doing anyway?” I joked.
    “Yeah I guess. Why did you stop things just now?”
    I sighed, I knew she would ask this eventually. “I want to really know you before we take it to the next level. That was always my mistake before, I never took the time before. I’m not making the same mistakes with you.”
    She stared at me for a moment before leaning in and kissing me gently. “I think you’re worth the wait.”
    I knew she would be worth it. “I know it’s weird to have the dude be the one to pump the brakes right?” I grinned.
    “A little, but it makes sense to me. I’ve made a lot of bad choices with guys in the past. Getting in too deep way too quickly. It usually starts with jumping into bed right away. Sex can complicate things. It’s not really intimacy if you can barely remember the other person’s name is it?”
    “No, it’s not. It’s meaningless. I don’t want meaningless with you.”
    “I want more, all of it. Everything you have inside of you Chad.” She touched my cheek.
    The scary part was that I wanted her to know all of me. I didn’t want to hide anymore.

 
     
     
     
     
    We fell into an easy routine, I would pick her up on the days I wasn't working. She was in my blood already—probably not a good thing, but I couldn’t make myself care. I couldn’t get enough of her, and the weird part was we still hadn’t slept together. I just really enjoyed her humor and how much we had in common.
    “Can I come watch you box?”
    “Why would you want to do that?” I didn’t know if I was ready for that yet. Scarlet was fragile and seeing me like that might ruin everything.
    “Because, that’s why.”
    “Not a reason.” I kissed her neck.
    “It’s important to you, and I’d like to see it.” She twisted around and looked at me.
    “Better, but I don't think you’re ready for it.”
    “Why do you say that?”
    “It’s a whole side of me that you don’t really know.”
    “I saw you with Max, so I won’t be afraid , if that’s what you’re worried about.”
    “That was different.” I wished she would just drop it, but I knew she wouldn’t.
    “How was it different?” She scooted away from me on the bed.
    “I was in control, I knew how far I would take things.”
    “You’re not in control when you’re in the boxing ring?”
    “Not always, but the situation itself is controlled. Does that make sense?”
    “Sort of. I still want to go.”
    “I just am not sure I’m ready then.”
    “What are you afraid of?”
    “I’m not afraid.”
    “Then let me come,” she countered.
    “You won't drop this until I say yes will you.”
    She grinned. “Nope.”
    “Fine, you can come . But when I say, not when you