because if Sam ever tried, he could be vaguely hot. In the pale light I can just make out the cluster of tiny freckles on the bridge of his noseâthey make me think of sunny days. He has muddy-brown eyes that make it hard to look away. Tousled bed-head hair. That whole Iâll-listen-to-everything-you-have-to-say-and-then-write-you-a-love-letter thing. Girls eat that stuff up. Instead heâs tragically committed to achieving new astronomical levels of bizzaro-ness. I canât be sure, but I think I glimpse a shoelace as his belt tonight.
âHella Stella, I said, âAre you okay?âââ Sam repeats himself for whatâs likely the millionth time.
I bristle at my old nickname. The word âhellaâ was sooo middle school and plus, I donât need to give people any more reason to talk about me. I scan the cemetery around us nervously. I can see a small group of stoners lighting up twenty feet away. Definitely not worried about them overhearing. But Janey Bear and her bestie, Kate Lucey, are staggering down the path toward us, arms locked, red cups in their hands, jaws clacking. Fan-freaking-tastic. I bet theyâre only out here prowling for sordid hookups to gossip about. Janey couldnât keep a secret if her life depended on it. Me sharing a romantic moment with Sam Worth in this gloomy cemetery will be the scandal that sheâs dreamed of her whole life. Before the night is over, rumors will be spreading that we were hooking up between the tombs, Sam calling out my childhood nickname between thrusts, me confessing myeternal love. Gag me. And of course, if that happens, I can kiss ever kissing Taylor Martinson good-bye.
I turn back to him and mouth, âDonât call me that.â
His eyes widen, and he reminds me of this owl stuffed toy I used to have. âCall you what? Hella Stella? Why?â he says so loudly I know Janey must hear.
I take a shaky breath and glance toward the girls. Janeyâs staring back at me with narrow-set blue eyes that donât miss a thing. âSam, just donât,â I murmur urgently. âPlease shut up.â I try to scare him with a nasty glare, but he starts to chuckle.
âWhatâs up with you tonight, Hella Stella?â he asks right as Janey and Kate stop in front of us.
âHi, Stella,â Kate says, her pitch swinging with joy over discovering us. Even she knows theyâve caught me red-handed. Janey just stares, the mole on her wormy upper lip twitching. Weâre not exactly friends. Zoey calls Janey and Kate leeches behind their backs. She says theyâre really nice to the actually popular people so that they can latch on and get invited to parties. I dislike them for different reasons. Theyâre always looking to knock you down a peg. Like they think of being popular as being on a varsity team. Someone should tell them that making other people less popular doesnât guarantee that theyâll be called off the bench. It just makes them bitches. Iâd like to tell them that this very moment. Instead I take the easy way out.
I hold my finger up to the girls for them to wait a second and then cross my arms against my chest. âI said donât call me that. Iâm not ten anymore, Sam. And apparently you need me to spell it out for you. Weâre.Not. Friends. When are you going to get that through your head?â The words taste bitter in my mouth.
Samâs eyes are glued to mine. His top lip begins to bow like heâs going to smile or laugh. I feel my bitchiest scowl falter. He stands with his hands in his pocketsâthe left one still bulging with his vestâand completely ignores the other two girls. For some reason a little trill of satisfaction runs through me that he acts like they donât exist. He smiles like he knows betterâbetter about what I canât imagineâand says to me, âDid you know that in the Middle Ages people used to write the news
Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley