Iâm not really sure. So, what about you?â
For a moment, Halder looked very young, like a little boy, uncomfortable confessing a secret, but then the moment passed. âIâd like to tell you something first. Something I havenât ever told anyone. When my mother was finally dying, she didnât allow my father to see her, to say his last good-bye. Not because she didnât love him, but for the very opposite reason. She loved him so much. Saying good-bye would have been too painful, too final for them both, and she knew that.â He turned to Weaver. âTheirs was a great love, Harry. And in a way Iâve always wanted the same kind of thing. Truly deep, full of honest passion.â
âAnd how do you feel about Rachel? Be honest.â
âSometimesâoftenâIâd lie awake, restless, imagining all the things Iâd like to happen between her and me. Iâd picture us together. Iâd picture her pregnant with my child, and happy that she was my wife. Iâd picture making love to herânot just sex, but real, honest-to-God love. The kind of tenderness a man should feel for a woman he truly loves. And so many times I really wanted to tell her.â Halder looked at his friend. âYou know how foolhardy and impetuous I usually am, and I canât say I wasnât tempted to tell her such things. But like you, I just couldnât.â
âWhy not?â
âProbably for the same reason as you. I really didnât want to upset the apple cart.â
âWhat do you mean?â
Halder placed a hand fondly on Weaverâs shoulder. âThereâs another kind of loveânot physical, but brotherly, or deep friendship, call it what you will, and itâs just as important. You always were the best friend Iâve ever had. Maybe if one of us had made a pass, it would have ruined everything. I donât just mean between us, because I honestly think our camaraderie is stronger than that, but I mean the friendship weâve all had this summer. And I didnât want that to happen.â
âI guess I know what you mean. Besides, when you add it up, the three of us had a great time. And maybe thatâs whatâs really important.â
âStill, Harry, weâve both got it bad. And there has to be a practical solution.â Halder allowed himself a playful smile. âFriendship aside, what if thereâs the remotest chance that Rachel might be in love with one of us?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âIf it were so, wouldnât it be a shame that we didnât let nature take its course? Otherwise, we could both spend the rest of our lives regretting that we didnât tell her how we felt before she leaves. At least one of us could be happy. And Rachel, too. It would be fair all round. How do you feel about that?â
âYou really think she might be in love with one of us?â
Halder smiled again. âEither way, tomorrowâs our last chance to find out.â
3
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The American ambassadorâs residence was packed with international dignitaries, the cream of Egyptian and European expatriate society, everyone from movie stars to diplomats, senior military officers to academics. The party was in full swing, everyone in good spirits, and as Weaver made his way through the dance-floor crowds, he acknowledged the handshakes from the other members of the team saying their good-byes. The press had been invited, and a trestle table was erected in the foyer, two Egyptian policemen standing guard over some of the valuables the dig had uncovered: gem necklaces, scarabs, gold amulets, and stone cartouches.
As Weaver thanked his well-wishers politely, others pressed in on him, and he had a desperate urge to be alone. âWould you excuse me, please? I need some fresh air.â
He made his way through the throng, crossed to a French window, and stepped out onto a balcony. It was cool outside, lotus and
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