pulsed. The pitchy squeal in her head crescendoed.
âJosef, would you excuse me.â She pushed her chair back and stood.
âIs everything all right?â
âPlease, donât let me interrupt. I need a minute to â¦â
âOh.â Josef nodded. âThe WC is down the hall, to the right. Donât get lost or weâll have to send the Gestapo to find you.â He laughed.
Elsie gulped and forced a feeble smile. She walked leisurely through the glittering banquet hall but quickened her pace alone in the shadowed corridor, past the sign marked
Toilette
until she reached the double doors leading to the back alley.
ELSIEâS GERMAN BAKERY
2032 TRAWOOD DRIVE
EL PASO, TEXAS
NOVEMBER 5, 2007
R ebaâs cell phone buzzed. âExcuse me.â She read the text message: PROCESSIN VAN OF ILLEGALS. B HOME LATE . She sighed and tossed the phone back into her purse.
âProblem?â asked Jane.
âNo, just more Rudyâs Bar-B-Q takeout for me. Iâm a regular.â
âI hear that, honey.â Jane tapped her fingers on the table. âBoyfriend?â
âNot exactly.â Reba shuffled the items in her handbag, then zipped it.
âOh, come on. Itâs just us girls.â Jane made like she was locking her mouth with a key.
Reba paused. Again, Jane was toeingâno,
pushing
the line that separated the journalist from the subject. It wasnât professional to talk about her relationships. The job was to get interviewees to talk about theirs; then sheâd write it up and the magazine printed it a thousand times over for public consumption. She was known for her feature profiles. She could wheedle out intimate stories from just about anybody her editor put in front of her; but
her
life was private, and she meant to keep it that way. Sheâd just met this woman. Jane was a total stranger. No, completely inappropriate.
But there was something about her, a calm intensity, that gave the illusionâcorrect or notâof trustworthiness. And the fact was, Reba didnât have many friends in the El Paso. She didnât trust most people. Sheâd beenjaded by far too many who said one thing but did another. Lied, in essence. Not that she could point a finger. She lied too, every day, big and small, even to herself. She told herself she didnât need companionship. She was independent, self-sufficient, and free. Riki had been the only one she dared trust here, and only to a limited extent. But lately, even things with him were going sour. She felt a budding loneliness, and with it came the familiar emptiness that once threatened to swallow her whole. She missed her older sister, Deedee, and her momma, too. Family. The very people sheâd traveled thousands of miles to leave behind.
On quiet El Paso nights when Riki was working late, the loneliness would sometimes consume her like it did in her childhood, and sheâd pour a glass of wine, open the kitchen window, and let the desert breeze kick up the linen curtains. It made her think of her last August Sunday in Richmond. Deedee had come over with two bottles of Château Morrisette. Theyâd drunk barefoot on the fresh-cut lawn, green clippings stuck to their toes. By the second cork pop, wine wasnât the only thing being poured into the night. Tipsy on illusive dreams, they forgot all their girlhood tears, talking of quixotic futures until even the lightning bugs turned off their lights; and for once, they understood why their daddy drank bourbon like lemonade. It was nice to pretend the world was wonderfulâto gulp away the fears, hush the memories, let your guard down and simply be content, if only for a few hours.
Reba rubbed the twitch in her forehead. âHeâs my fiancé,â she relented.
âReally!â Jane leaned back in her chair. âWhereâs the ring?â
Reba reached for the chain at her neck and pulled the suspended solitaire from beneath