of herself.â
How I wished that had been true in the moment it had become clear that she could not.
âShe was in a big hurry to leave work Saturday,â I said. âDid you guys have plans?â
âJust to go out. No place special. We went to a couple of clubs on Clematis Street.â
âWhich clubs?â
Looking annoyed, she turned to the faucets and shut off the water.
âI donât know,â she said impatiently. She was nervous with my questions. Whether she had reason to be or whether she was simply sensing something was wrong, I didnât know. âWhatâs the difference? We hit some clubs. We had a few drinks.â
âWith anyone in particular?â
âI donât like all these questions,â she said. âItâs none of your business what we did.â
She unsnapped the horse from the ties and started toward the barn with him. I followed.
âIâm making it my business, Lisbeth,â I said.
She put the horse in a stall and busied herself with the door latch.
âHave you seen or heard from her since Saturday night either?â I asked.
âNo. Youâre scaring me.â
âI sometimes have that effect on people.â
âI wish you would leave.â
She knew something bad was coming. She wanted me to go away before I set the bad thing loose. Then maybe it didnât really exist and it couldnât touch her life. Oh, to be twenty and still believe in innocence.
âLisbeth,â I said.
She didnât look at me. She seemed to brace herself. I half-expected her to plug her ears with her fingers.
âIrina is dead. Her body was found this morning in a canal.â
The big cornflower eyes went glassy with tears. âYouâre lying! What kind of sick person are you?â
From the corner of my eye I could see one of the stable hands looking over at us, frowning. He started toward us with a pitchfork in hand.
I turned to him and told him in Spanish that everything was fine but that I had given Lisbeth some very sad news. The death of a friend.
The aggression went out of him and he expressed his apologies and went back to his business.
âIâm sorry, Lisbeth,â I said. âItâs true. And there is no good or gentle way to say it.â
The girl put her hands over her face and slid down to the ground, her back against the stall door. She drew in a shuddering breath and said, âNo,â the word weak and muffled. âNo, youâre wrong.â
âIâm not. I wish I were, but Iâm not.â
âOh, my God!â
I squatted down beside her and put my hand on her shoulder. âIâm very sorry. You two were close?â
She nodded and sobbed into her hands until she gagged.
âCan we go sit somewhere?â I asked quietly.
She nodded, pulled a dirty rag out of the cargo pocket of her shorts, wiped her face, and blew her nose. She held on to my arm as we rose. She felt as weak and shaky as an elderly person in poor health.
âWhat happened?â she asked, hiccuping air between syllables. âDid she drive off the road? Sheâs a terrible driver.â
âNo,â I said, and said nothing more until we were seated on a bench at the far end of the barn.
âItâs not clear yet what happened,â I said. âThere was no sign of her car.â
The girl looked at me, confused. âI donât understand.â
âHer body was dumped there. She was probably murdered.â
I thought she might faint, she was so pale. But she got up from the bench, ran around the corner of the barn, and retched. I waited, feeling empty, drained from telling her and, in telling her, reliving that horrible moment of discovery.
When she came back and sat down again, she put her head in her hands. She was shaking visibly.
âI canât believe this is happening!â
âMe neither,â I said.
âHow can this be happening?â
I would