especially about someone in her own family.
She wants me to visit, Griffin told her now.
Of course she does.
She doesnt like her new place.
Of course she doesnt.
Shes going to live forever.
No, but shell make it seem like forever.
The first thing hed done when arriving at the restaurant was to wash his shirtsleeve in the mens room. Though he thought hed done a good, thorough job, he could smell it again. When she called, I pulled over onto the shoulder, and a gull took a shit on me.
But Joy had lost interest in the subject, just as she often did with stories at what he considered their most vivid and interesting point. Have you called your daughter yet?
Your daughter, rather than our , usually meant that in Joys opinion he was shirking some important parental duty. She doesnt get here until this afternoon, right?
Shes been on the Cape since yesterday. Shes in the wedding party, remember?
Well, now that he thought about it, he did. Ill call her when I get to the B and B, he promised.
Good. She could use some reassuring.
About what?
She cant understand why were arriving in separate cars. Explain that to her, will you? Then she can explain it to me.
Griffin sighed. Hed succeeded in deflecting Joy from her purpose by complaining about his mother, but now theyd circled back. Best to get it over with and apologize. I shouldve waited for you, he admitted, pausing a beat before adding, Boston wasnt much fun without you. And, when she still didnt say anything, I meant to spite you and ended up spiting myself
Are you still there?
Im here.
I hope you arent waiting for me to humble myself further, because thats all Ive got for you.
No, she said. That should do it.
By the time Griffin drove back down the Cape and checked into the B and B, it was nearly noon. He brought his travel bag and satchel up to the room, leaving the trunk empty except for his fathers ashes. Hed passed a couple of peaceful, secluded spots, but thered been a brisk breeze, and he feared that when he opened the urn a strong gust might come up and hed be wearing his father. Also, hed feel less self-conscious saying a few words in his memory if there was someone besides himself to hear them, so he decided to wait for Joy.
His father had died of a massive embolism the previous September, and the circumstances were nothing if not peculiar. Hed been found in his car in a plaza on the Mass Pike. Like most rest stops, this one had a huge parking lot, and his fathers car was on the very perimeter, far from other vehicles. It was unclear how long it had been there before someone noticed him slumped over in the passenger seat, his head resting against the window. Except for the trickle of blood, dried and crusty, below his left nostril, he might have been taking a nap. But why wasnt he behind the wheel? The glove box was open. Had he been rummaging around in it, looking for something? On the backseat the road atlas was open to Massachusetts, with Griffins phone number scrawled on the top of the page. The key was in the ignition in the ON position. The car had apparently run out of gas there in the lot.
Mustve been coming to see you, the young cop said when Griffin arrived on the scene to identify his father.
Its possible, Griffin told him.
He didnt mention it, though? Coming to visit?
Griffin said no, that itd been a good six months since hed seen him and almost as long since theyd spoken on the phone.
That normal?
He wasnt sure what this fellow was getting at. Normal for them, or normal for other adult fathers and sons?
I mean, you didnt get along? the cop said. He seemed less suspicious than saddened to consider the possibility that over time his relationship with his own dad might similarly devolve.
We got along fine.
It just seems
I dont know. What do you make of the fact that he