inexperienced and had no business testing the waters with a girl he adored.
He’d been arrogant and self-assured. He didn’t need to be taught and certainly not by another man. Ren was his and he needed no instruction when it came to her, did he? He knew her body intimately. Had spent hours exploring it, tasting it, possessing it.
He’d been so stupid. So very
wrong
.
He couldn’t accept that Ren was beyond his reach. But he also knew that there were different rules for the world he lived in. The world Ren lived in.
He nodded slowly, but his gaze locked with Lucas’s in a clear message. This wasn’t over. Not by a long shot. Lucas dipped his head in acknowledgment.
“I think perhaps it’s best if we go now,” Lucas said in that quiet, controlled voice. “I don’t want to cause Ren any further upset. Give my regrets to Damon and Serena.”
He turned to Ren as if giving her permission to speak. She was a disciplined submissive. So beautiful. Elegant in her obedience and her respect for the man who mastered her. It made Cole ache.
She touched Lucas’s arm as if to thank him and then she turned to Cole.
“It was nice to see you again, Cole.”
It took all of Cole’s restraint not to reach out and touch her. Not to take her hand and feel the softness of her palm. Turn it over in his hand and kiss it. He wanted to rub her hand over his cheek and down his neck. He just wanted to touch her. To feel her against him.
And now she was turning to go. Panic flared in his chest. Spread to his throat, squeezing relentlessly until his pulse thudded rapidly, each beat like a hammer at his temples.
Lucas nudged Ren away and as she started down the hall, Lucas held out a business card to Cole.
With a frown, Cole took the card. He was still holding it, staring down at the name and contact information for Lucas Holt when Lucas turned and disappeared down the hall after Ren.
C HAPTER 6
R en wasn’t herself. Lucas knew her intimately. Better than he’d ever known another woman, which he found interesting given the length of their association.
He’d had longer relationships. Their year together was actually one of his shorter agreements. But they meshed well.
And yet, as well as he knew her, he also recognized that there was still so much of her to learn. Maybe that was why she still fascinated him so much.
He watched her frown over her sketch, chew absently at her pencil and then with disgust, ball up the paper and toss it across the room.
Yes, his Ren was distracted, and he knew well the source of her preoccupation.
If he asked, he knew she’d be truthful. It was what he liked most about her. She was refreshingly honest even when she thought he’d be unhappy with her response. He never grew angry over the truth,though. It was a clear invitation for lies, and he hated untruths above all else.
But he wouldn’t force her to voice the source of her distraction. He sensed how unsettled she was and he worried about her happiness.
With a sigh, he turned away, knowing what he needed to do, but at the same time, reluctant. His reluctance intrigued him as much as the idea that he didn’t yet know all there was to know of his Ren.
It would seem that he did indeed possess the ability to feel jealousy. This was new for him, and while he recognized it for what it was, he was mystified by it.
Perhaps he’d allowed Ren to get closer than he’d intended. But then he hadn’t done it consciously. Somehow she’d managed to slip past his defenses and he doubted she’d tried to do so. She seemed as content with the status of their relationship as he was. Or had been. Now he wasn’t so sure what he wanted or expected. And that bothered him.
The question was, what did he want?
He walked quietly away from the doorway of Ren’s office, went into his own, closed the door and then sank into the chair behind his desk.
He fingered the message left by his secretary, who came in half a day to take care of paperwork. Cole had