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to our screaming match, and I can imagine what I must
look like at the moment- not a pretty sight.
    “Because
you failed to mention that Indie was on tour with you and that you two kissed!”
    Jasper
takes a steady breath, and I know he is as frustrated with me now, as he was
the last time we had this argument.
    “Believe
what you want Ava. I never lied to you. Nor did I ever cheat on you. You on the
other hand…” And he doesn’t finish his sentence, because although I never
cheated on Jasper, I did lie to him. I never told him that I had forgiven
Harper, and we saw one another occasionally. And I never told him that Harper
had no idea he even existed.
    He
accused me of cheating on him with Harper, and yes, I was guilty of cheating
emotionally on him, for not being honest with him about my friendship with
Harper. But he was also being dishonest by not telling me about Indie. I may
have lied, but I never cheated, because Jasper owned me heart, body and soul.
    I
don’t want to continue on with this conversation because I feel a steady bout
of nausea approaching.
    Living
in Singapore, I could almost pretend it didn’t hurt as much as it did, but
there never was a day I didn’t think about Jasper. And now seeing him, I have
nowhere to run to.
    Dominique
claps her hands. “Tres Bon. We are finished.”
    I
look over at Jasper and nod, decoding her words to relate to mine and Jasper’s
relationship.
    “Yeah,
we most definitely are.”
    I
storm off to collect my clothes, and also my heart.

 
    Chapter 5
     
    Singapore
     
    I am on edge.
    I
cannot sit still.
    I
am seeing Jasper in approximately ten hours, fifty four minutes and twelve
seconds, not that I’m counting or anything. I haven’t seen him for weeks, and
those weeks have been the longest, most depressing weeks of my life. I can say
that with conviction, as I thought my life was unbearable when I broke up with
Harper, ha! That was a walk in the park compared to these feelings of longing
for Jasper.
    I
am so proud of him. His band ‘Passengers of Ego’ have been signed to a major
record label, but I never expected anything less. With Jasper on lead vocals,
they were bound for stardom, as he has talent AND looks, so it’s a win-win for
any record label. Jasper really doesn’t think it is a big deal, but that’s
Jasper; he’s so humble and grateful with life. And that’s why I love him so
much.
    P.O.E are
supporting ‘Flames’ in Singapore tonight, and I am on the edge of my seat. And
I mean I am literally on the edge of my seat, listening to the ramblings of my
ex over coffee, in a café on campus. When did my life become so backward?
    “Why
won’t you reconsider?”
    I
look at Harper Holden, my ex and my first love. Yes he is attractive, in his
smart business suit and freshly shaven face, but he’s not Jasper. He doesn’t
take my breath away, just by walking into a room. He doesn’t set me on fire
with a single touch. And he doesn’t own me, mind, body and soul like Jasper
does.
    Leaving
Jasper to pursue my culinary career in Singapore was the hardest decision of my
life, and the thought of leaving Jasper was unbearable. But the thought of not
pursuing my dream in life, was worse. I didn’t want to be that sad lost girl I
was when I was with Harper. I wanted to be a better person, be happy with the
reflection staring back at me every day. And I wanted that, because I yearned
to be a better woman for Jasper. He deserved that because he gave me his
everything, and I wanted to return the sentiment. If I didn’t make the choice
to leave and pursue my dreams of becoming the best I could be, then I would
have regretted it for the rest of my life. And I didn’t want to associate that
regret with Jasper. He understood and he let me go, promising he would wait for
me, regardless of the time it took for me to come home to him.
    How
did I get so lucky?
    So,
the question my ex wants me to reconsider is, will I marry him. And I tell him
what I told him the