you okay?â She tightened the cap back on the bottle and rose. âIâm sure youâre not, butââ She stopped, gaze shifting to the right in a look I knew well.
âGhost?â I said.
She nodded, then rose and turned to the newcomer. âIf you were sent to protect me, youâre about an hour late.â
âHey, Mom,â I said.
I said it casually enough, but it didnât feel casual. It never does. When my mother first became Jaimeâs spirit guide, the Fates had threatened to end the relationship if Mom had too much contact with me. God, how Iâd hated that. Threw tantrums. Screamed at the heavens. Cursed the Fates the way only a fifteen-year-old would dare.
Over the years, Iâd come to realize they were right. If we couldnât be together, we couldnât keep pretending we were. We both had to move on. Still I loved being able to have some contact with my mother, and it was hard, knowing she was right there and I couldnât see her, couldnât hear her, couldnât touch her. Couldnât be with her.
âItâs not your mom, Savannah,â Jaime said.
Not Mom? Who else would come to protect her? No, not come. Jaime had said âsent.â Who would be sent to protect Jaime?
âMy father.â
When she nodded, I turned to the empty air and said, âHey.â Again. It was as casually as I could say it, but there was nothing casual about it. I couldnât even say âHey, Dad,â because Kristof Nast had never been my dad. Iâd only met him a few days before he died. Died at my hands. Caught up in a storm of grief, thinking heâd had Paige killed, Iâd launched a knockback spell so hard it threw him against a concrete wall. Iâd been in a trance state, so everyone thinks I donât remember what happened. But I do.
So does he, Iâm sure, but when I brought it up once through Jaime, he stuck to the fiction that heâd died when the house collapsed. He said it was his own fault, that heâd screwed up trying to get custody from Paige, and he regretted that. But he was with my mother again so he was happy, even if he did miss his sons and the chance to really get to know me.
I missed that, too. Sometimes I think about what it would have been like if Mom was still alive and Kristof had come back into our lives. I knew from my half brother, Sean, that our father had been everything he could have wanted in a dad, maybe everything I would have wanted, too. Only Iâll never get the chance to find out. Not really.
Anyway, awkward. Just all-around awkward.
âIf you guys need to talk,â I said, âweâll step out andââ
âNo, heâs here for you,â Jaime said. She glanced his way, listening. Then she blinked, startled. âCanât you justâ?â A pause and her cheeks flamed. âNo, of course. Right. Okay, well . . .â She forced lightness into her voice. âJust take good care of it. I put a lot of work into making it just the way I want it.â
âWhatâs heâ?â I said.
Jaimeâs head jerked back. The water bottle fell from her hand.
âSavannah.â
Jaimeâs voice was pitched low, the inflections wrong. Sheâd let my father take over her body. Full-channeling, something sheâd once claimed sheâd never let a ghost do. Since then she has a few times, with my mother. She trusts her. My father? Not so much.
I knew he scared her, though she tried to hide it. In life, Kristof Nast had scared most people. Heâd been the heir to the most powerful Cabal in the country, a corporation that gained and maintained its position through raw, merciless ambition. According to everyone whoâd known my father, heâd been perfectly suited to lead the company. Even my mother called him a ruthless bastard, though coming from her, that was a compliment.
My mother loved him. Jaime tolerated him only because of