points.
“Crap. I’m sorry, I didn’t know. I guess there wasn’t …” a small smile touched his lips, “a whole lot of studying going on there for a while.”
“No.”
That was an understatement. She’d spent a lot of time studying with Jarrod, but not the kind her grandmother or Jarrod’s mother thought they were doing in his bedroom or at the library or at any number of friend’s places they’d lied about to sneak off to this very place.
Had they been required to sit an exam on the male/female reproductive system, that they would have passed with flying colours.
“But your other results for the year would have almost cancelled them out.”
Yes. Overall she’d still come out with a B average. But that had just been one of the whammies she’d been dealing with.
“There’s something else.” She dragged her gaze from his and stared out her window. She couldn’t look at him when she told him the truth. “I missed a period, Jarrod.”
Chapter Four
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A n ominous silence stretched between them as his gaze lasered into the side of her face. Selena could practically hear the clash of his thoughts as he pieced the puzzle together. “You were … pregnant? I … got you pregnant ?”
“No, Jarrod, no.” She turned back, shaking her head, but he wasn’t listening. He slammed his open palm against the steering wheel and Selena jumped.
“Oh God, what did you do?” he demanded, staring at her with wild eyes. “ Why didn’t you come to me about that?”
She shook her head again. “I wasn’t pregnant, Jarrod,” she repeated. “But I thought I was. My cycle is every twenty-eight days. W ithout fail. I hadn’t been late before that or since. For three days I thought I was pregnant. And you and I both know that was possible. There were times when we were bloody careless.”
She’d wanted to go on the pill but there’d been no way she was asking Doc Janson for a script—he’d only just stopped giving her a lollipop with every visit. They’d planned to go into the city after they’d finished school and get it seen to then. They’d planned to wait until then.
But they hadn’t.
And condoms weren’t exactly easy to buy when the only chemist in town was run by a couple who knew both your parents.
He visibly relaxed, huffing out a breath before resting his forehead against the steering wheel for long moments.
“Fuck, Selena.” He sat back. “You scared the crap out of me.”
“Well multiply that by about a million and you’ll probably be in the ballpark of how terrified I was.”
“But … why?” he asked again, raking a hand through his hair as he searched her gaze. “You didn’t have to go through that alone. Didn’t you think I would support you?”
Selena shut her eyes briefly. “It’s because I knew that you would .” She opened her eyes to find him watching her. “And that you’d love our baby and that I’d love it too and then I’d be stuck in Jumbuck Springs, a teenage mother, pumping petrol at Alec Campbell’s or slinging beers at the pub, all the things I always wanted just gone in a puff of smoke. Just like my mum.”
Even now the emotions—the panic —that had swirled inside her those few days still had the power to steal her breath.
“I’m not your father, Selena. I wouldn’t have tried to stop you from doing what you wanted to do.”
Her mother had wanted to be a lawyer. Two months before leaving Jumbuck Springs for university she’d met and fallen in love with a young ringer from one of the local sheep stations and fallen pregnant. Instead of college she found herself married and ensconced in the middle of nowhere with a new baby, no money and a very traditional man who insisted his wife and child stay by his side.
Grandy was convinced Abby Durrum had been in a fog of depression when they’d left Selena with her that day. Her parents had apparently been arguing as they’d arrived—about Abby enrolling to do some university subjects