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songs and give the machine a rest and every ones ears .  So we all pilled on the dance floor. Me and Kylie started swinging our assets all around.  Needless to say we turned a few heads in the process.  It felt good to let loose and enjoy the moment.  Once we were done dancing to a few hip shaking songs we all left the dance floor and cooled off and started drinking again. 
    “Hey Ry, why don’t you get up there and sing us a little something? We all know you have a voice, we hear you just about every day when you’re in the back.” Kris said tipping her glass my way trying to get me to come out of my shell.
    “Oh my god. You guys can hear me?  I didn’t think you could.  I wouldn’t know what to sing and plus I am too shy.” I cried placing my head in my hands shaking back and forth.
    “Oh come on now. Live a little it will be fun.  You went up there with us why don’t yo u do it by yourself?”Asked Kylie.
    “Yeah come one we promise we won’t laugh or take video we will just sit back and ignore you.  Just think of it like no one is around and you aren’t in a packed bar.” Manda stated.
    “Oh yeah like that is supposed to make me feel any better.  I am in a packed bar!!!! Anyways I don’t think I can , I have never sung in front of people before.  What if I suck?  It will be just another embarrassing moment for me. And lord knows I don’t need any more of those in this bar.”
    “Look just go and have fun you deserve to live a little. You’re a 32 year old MILF that has a great voice. Just go sing something.” Kris replied.
    “And now for our next performer to help crush our ear drums some more let’s give a big hand to Ryan Davis!!” Called the DJ. Holy shit, heart failure.  The first person I shot daggers to was Kris then Kylie and lastly Amanda.  Those little bitches set me up.
    “Well looks like you have to go. So get your ass up mama and get those vocals going!” Kris said laughing while dragging me up to the stage.
    Shit! “Hi I am Ryan Davis and I am going to kill my friends for making me do this.  You bitches better sleep with one eye open tonight!” I screeched into the microphone.
    “What am I singing by the way?”
    “Oh Sugarlands ‘Stay’.” the DJ replied looking at me with a shit eating grin.
    “Oh now I am really going to kill you ladies!!” Not only did this song hold special meaning it also tore me up inside every time I heard it and sang it.
    When this song came out in 2006 I had just found out that Jason was cheating on me with a girl he met at work.  I was devastated; we had only been married for a few years. My world crumbled.  This song helped me get through that very devastating heart break.  But he came back to me and begged for my forgiveness.  I was weak and let him back in. I felt I needed him to help me raise our kids.  We had two babies and I didn’t want to be a broken family.  So I sucked up my pride and put on my big girl panties.
    So that’s what I am going to do now.  I am going to put on my big girl panties and belt this song out to the bleeding ears of Barneys Bar.
    I started off a little shaky and then I let out each and every word, hanging onto them like it was my life line.  I sat on a stool because my legs felt like jelly and I didn’t want to pass out.  Halfway throught the song, I had the stand gripped in a vice grip and my eyes closed.  I put so much emotion in the song and decided that I could do this.  So I opened my eyes when I got to the second verse.  Looking out among the crowd I noticed silence and all eyes were on me.  Every bartender, every server, and patron in the bar was watching and listening to me poor my heart out with every word that came out of my mouth.  Not once did I stumble. Once I got to the ending I ripped the microphone off the stand and poured every single emotion into to those last soul full words. By the time the song was over the bar was silent.
    I cleared my throat “Well……um….. I