realized that heâd been ripped off in his Missouri gig. Basically, the promoter claimed 251 people showed up at the concert and offered him a check based on that number, while Dash said it was more like 600 people, at least, and rejected their offer. Just before he dropped me at the gas station I said, âSo you didnât get any money at all for your concert?â
âDonât worry, I will. Iâm gonna sue their ass and get twice what they owe me.â
He pulled to a stop by the convenience store and I got out.
âIâll call you if I have to stay a long time,â he said before driving away.
It was cold out and already getting dark. I didnât want to look around at the dealers or cops, and kept my eyes straight ahead like a soldier while I paced. My ex used to make fun of my pacing. She made fun of my worrying too. âWhatâs a big guy like you worry about so much?â sheâd say in the friendly, sexy way she used to tease me during our first few months. Then, toward theend of our relationship, her tone of voice completely changed as sheâd run through my defects. Also, it suddenly became a much longer list. Of course, those kinds of changes always happen when things go bad. I was shocked when she left me, yet Iâd always worried that she would, that I wasnât enough for her. I used to smoke pot to help feel confident with her. Then I got her to smoke with me while we made love and it was out of this world sweet. But when we started to argue (I never trusted her with men) the pot made us paranoid at times and weâd have to take âludes to calm down. That reminded me that I forgot to give Dash the money for Quaaludes, forgot to even remind him to ask for some from the source.
âShit,â I muttered, then looked up and saw Dashâs car, back already.
âGet in,â Dash said. âHe wasnât home.â I wanted to make him promise right then to never drive me there again unless he talked to the source first. That just because you wanted someone to be home didnât mean they would be, but I held back. The dealerâs depression was obvious. He made more cell phone calls in the car, obsessively going over the details of how he was cheated. Then, a block from my condominium, he asked me if he could use my computer again and I said OK.
âIâve been a real pill to be with today, brother,â Dash suddenly said as he parked. âFirst I take you for a ride, then I make all those phone calls and barely talk to you at all and now I need to use your computer again.â
âDonât worry about it, thatâs nothing,â I said.
âThanks, bro,â he said, as he disappeared into the little room that seemed barely big enough to contain him. âIâll only be about five minutes.â
I paced the hallway while he used my computer, periodically looking at my watch. When seven minutes passed I ducked into the room and asked him how things were coming.
âCheck this out,â he said, indicating the screen that was full of photographs of women. âIâve already boned two of them on this screen alone.â
âWho are they?â I blurted, trying to hide my irritation.
âTheyâre from Match.com . Theyâre a gold mine of pussy, man, you should check it out.â
âYuh,â I said softly, thinking of my own experiences with Internet dating, which was full of much less happy stories. âSo how are things with Maryann?â
âItâs all over,â he said, as he flicked to another screen full of young women.
âIâm sorry.â
âWeâre still best friends but Iâm not doing her anymore. Yeah, Iâve already moved out of her place.â
âSo are you staying in your office?â
âNo, thereâs mold there now. The last storm it got flooded and now thereâs mold. Hey, youâve got a lot of space, you want to rent me a