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that James had built on his own. To me, letting those old men win would have been the biggest betrayal to James. The only way I could have ever hurt him. And I was determined to never let that happen, under any circumstances.
    My life changed in a grand way, and I was unsure of how to deal with it. The grief was often too much for me to handle. I would cry at my desk, or chug back whiskey when no one was looking. Still cursing him for leaving me before I was ready to say goodbye; I made his death all about me, and I think some days I still do. I am a selfish woman.
    Ana retired, and I am sure James had set her up for life. I hired an assistant who could deal with my often bi-polar mood swings. Livie would be a saint to me, and care for me in a way I never thought possible. At least care for the Seven James business woman, because I would never let business and pleasure cross again. It was a giant mistake that only left me far more broken than I had been when I met James White. My reputation around the office darkened, but I didn’t care because I am pretty sure during those couple months I was set on self-destructing. I just didn’t know how to handle losing someone of that caliber in my life. Losing Daniel was different. I cared for him, and I thought I loved him. But meeting James and letting him into my life, I learned what true love really was. And I was sure it was a once in a lifetime thing for me. Hell, I am pretty sure a love like we shared is a once in a lifetime thing for anyone.
    It was three months to the date that I lost James when a messenger showed up with a letter. No return sender.
    My heart stopped when I opened it.
    Seven,
    Your time for self destruction is over. Shocked?
    Didn’t think I knew what you would do once I was gone?
    I know you better than you will ever know yourself. So do me a favor, and accomplish everything we had always planned to do together. Go after Alexander Mobile. Go on a fucking vacation for
    once. Live your life.
    Go back to Swingers & Sinners, because I know you haven’t been there since I gave you this
    empire.
    Live your life. You only get one.
    I love you. I always will.
    You were my everything, Seven James.
    James
    I sat in shock, reading the letter James had sent me from the grave. I should have known he would have thought about everything. His planning was always impeccable.
    That was the day I pulled my head out of my ass. Or at least began to. It wasn’t an overnight process, and my god did it require a shit ton of whiskey, but I needed to move on not just for my own well being, but for the greater good of the company. I needed to give it my all, and that is when I realized I had just been treading water in the corporate world since I lost James.
    I put James’ penthouse on the market. I couldn’t sleep in a place I knew he died in any longer. It was part of my moving on process. I couldn’t be stuck in the grief anymore. I couldn’t cry myself to sleep in the walls of his home wishing he would come back to me. Praying his bedroom door would open up and he would stroll into the room wearing nothing but his lounge pants. It was over. It all was over and I needed to learn how to live my life without James in it. Just as I had lived before he came into my life and flipped shit upside down.
    I didn’t feel like a user or a bought woman anymore. I worked every day of my life and I would continue to do that until I met the same fate that James did. I only hoped that one day I would find a doe eyed business woman I could pass everything onto. Because just like James I knew I would live my life alone. Not miserable though. Happy with the life that I had and the people that I have chosen to let into my circle.
    Because there would never be another man I could love the way I loved James. It was a gift that I would forever cherish, one of those romances that could never be topped. He broke my walls down and when he was lowered into the ground, whatever I had left of a heart