to read the label. She scribbled another number on the list and waited for him to say something. Maybe a sharp âNot going to happenâ or âIt doesnât pay a penny more.â
Silence.
âNot that Iâm complaining,â she continued. âThe tips have been great. It probably helps that I havenât spilled a single drink since that first night.â She glanced up to see if heâd fallen asleep standing up staring at the beer.
Nope, still awake. And not looking at the beer. Not unless he expected to find a bottle buried between her breasts.
âIâm not hiding a can of that super special IPA down my shirt,â she teased as she stood up. âBut you can stare at my cleavage all you want. Nothing is going to happen.â
Noah looked up from her chest and raised an eyebrow. âNever writing back to me, did that help you forget about the night you rode the bull?â
âNo,â she said firmly. âI didnât want to forget. Maybe take back what I said. But now . . . I canât take another ride with you.â
âYouâre sure about that?â he asked mildly. But she saw the tension rippling through his muscles. This man was close to falling asleep on his feet. But Noah still looked as if he would toss her over his shoulder and carry her straight to his barn.
Do it!
She felt the desire rising up and leaving her wanting what she couldnât haveâÂhim.
âIâm sure,â she said softly.
Because no matter how much I want to touch you, Iâm terrified one kiss, one wild night, will damage whatâs left of my heart.
But she wasnât going to spell out her feelings and fears for him. As much as she hated living with fear, she wasnât going to present a challenge or give him a chance to prove that sometimes desire trumped everything else. Because, oh God, if her longing for Noah and his supersized muscles won . . .
âNothing will happen,â she continued. âBecause I have a history of only falling for total jerks.â
âI can be a jerk,â he said, his tone daring her to prove him wrong as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. His muscles flexed and his Semper Fi tattoo stared back at her as if the marines motto translated into âBad Boy Material.â
âIâm sure you can,â she said. But she knew better than to travel down that road. She moved to his side and patted his arm. He stared down at her hand as if sheâd seared the blond hair. She withdrew her hand and added, âI just want you to know it wonât be a problem.â
âThe other night, while you were working your first shift , I wanted to lick the vodka off your breasts.â He spoke in a low tone and his gaze met hers. The look in his eyes screamed I dare you to pat me like a freaking puppy again .
âYou wouldnât try now that Iâm full-Âtime.â Her statement hovered close to question-Âmark territory.
âGet a bottle and try me,â he said. âIâll probably break my own damn rule about fooling around with the employees.â
Her hand itched to reach for the nearest liquor bottle. But she was too much of a coward. Plus, she didnât think he would do it. She knew jerks, the kind of men who hit, the ones who left, and the guys who didnât give a damn. Becoming a marine, deploying to Afghanistan, fightingâÂthe experience had knocked the pedestal of perfection right out from under him. But that didnât make him a jerk. Just a good man whoâd gone to war and come home a little lost. A former soldier whoâd rather give in to desire instead of face his own demons.
She stared at the lines around his eyes. Right now, he looked every inch a good guy whoâd rather use her breasts as a pillow instead of a shot glass.
âMaybe later. Youâre tired,â she said. âLet me finish the inventory while you rest.â
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