saving, the one whoâs not strong enough to take care of herself.
No, she couldnât say those words. So sheâd tried to manage on her own. And still failed. She hadnât been strong enough. Not even close.
âI saw your note,â he said as he claimed the seat across from her. âYouâre working at Big Buckâs?â
âNoah gave me a job.â
âHeâs a good kid. And heâs doing a fine job with that bar.â He stabbed his fork into the eggs. âItâs a big relief for his father having him home. Buck fell a few months ago helping his neighbor set a hunting stand up in a tree. He broke his leg and now heâs having a hard time getting around, from what I hear. Good thing his son had come home by then.â
She nodded and focused on eating. Was her father waiting for Dominic to come back? It didnât seem likely now that heâd gone through Ranger School. He might have left for basic training at the same time as NoahâÂand Ryan, the third in their trioâÂbut she suspected her brother was the only one who wanted to be there.
She glanced up from her half-Âempty dish. The sound of their forks on the plates filled the otherwise empty kitchen.
âIâm glad youâre home,â her father said suddenly. âBut if you came back because . . . If there is something wrong, Iâd like to know. I want to help.â
Where do I begin?
âI just needed a job and a fresh start,â she said.
She couldnât tell the man whoâd spent years questioning her choices about the baby. Heâd been right every time. But choosing the wrong guy and losing a baby? This wasnât a mark on her record. It was an F for âfailure.â It had broken her heart in ways she hadnât imagined possible. Sheâd held herself accountable. She couldnât bear to add his judgment too. Not yet.
âW AITING FOR THE cases of beer to count themselves?â Josie asked as she pushed through the door leading to Big Buckâs back room and headed for Noah. He looked like he hadnât slept since the night the Summers brothers launched the hunt for the mysterious Caroline.
Four days had passed since her trial shift and Josie hadnât learned anything more about the missing marine. But she knew Noah had made it his mission to find her. He was either serving drinks, searching the Willamette Valley for Caroline, or trying to do the inventory when he was too tired to count.
He glanced at her and then turned his attention back to the cases neatly stacked by the back wall. âThis new citrus summer ale doesnât sell. I still have . . . so damn much.â
âFive cases.â She reached out and took the clipboard and pen from his hands. She hadnât slept much either between working through the weekend at the bar and getting up in the morning for awkward breakfasts with her father. But sheâd rested long enough to count boxes. Unlike her boss. She scrolled down the list, found the summer ale, and wrote the number.
âCases of this stuff and everyone wants Fernâs Hoppy Heaven IPA,â he muttered.
âSo get that instead.â She scanned the rows of beer boxes before adding a few zeros to the inventory list. âAnd we also need light beer.â
âOnly a few bars in Portland have the Hoppy Heaven on draft,â he said. âA bunch of the students drive up to the brewery once a week to buy a four-Âpack. An hourâs drive to buy four cans of beer and they have to wait in line when they get there.â He shook his head. âI need to convince the brewery to let us sell it here.â
âI could help you,â she said, scribbling another zero on the inventory sheet. âI could take over the ordering.â
âFour shifts in and youâre trying for a promotion?â Noah said.
âOnly if it pays more.â She moved to the kegs and bent over one