was already grabbing a coat, anxious to get going. âIâm not doing it for money,â she said.
I couldnât resist the crack, said, âVery noble of you.â
As she opened the door to send me on my way she added, âAnd Iâm certainly not doing it for you.â
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Dark Preparation
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Benedictus was naked, staring in a full-length mirror, and with the left hand traced the tattoo along the stomach.
Then, taking a very sharp knife, began to remove the tattoo. The pain was almost unbearable, and yet exquisite agony.
Benedictus began to envision how the killing of the nun would play out â lure her into a trap, then very slowly strangle the wretch to all damnation.
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All That Shines
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I was in Busker Brownâs, a pub just off Quay Street. They have a jazz morning on Sundays and it is always packed. Today, though, a weekday, it was quiet. They do a very fine Colombian roast â no, not dope, coffee â and I savoured the sheer bite of it as I opened the paper, the taste in my mouth moving from bitter to acrid.
A nun had been killed. Sheâd been found strangled in the Claddagh church where sheâd been saying her morning devotion. The papers put it down to some drug-crazed youth and lamented the state of the nation. I read the account with an icy chill in my gut. This was victim three.
When I finally got home, I was wired. I rang theGuards, got through to Clancy, shouted, âNow will you pay attention?â
He waited a moment, then said, âAh, Taylor, conspiracies everywhere. Weâve already arrested a deranged person found with her rosary beads in his possession. Gold ones â he liked the shine on them. I think.â
I argued, âIt canât be him. There is a list â I showed you â already three from it are dead and the person who wrote that wasnât attracted by â â I could barely contain myself, â â something fucking shiny.â
He sniggered. âLanguage, Taylor. What have you be drinking? The water? Tell you what â if your letter-writer puts your name on the list, weâll definitely pay attention. Might even buy him a few pints.â
I threw my mobile across the room.
I was beyond anger. I wanted to inflict serious damage on somebody. I was pacing up and down my small apartment, thinking,
Fuck âem all. What do I care?
Then the post arrived.
Lots of offers to join video clubs, one letter informing me Iâd won a million euro and all I had to do was ring the following number, a voucher for a free pizza . . . and then a white envelope. I recognized the writing, tore it open, saw the one single page and the typed message that read:
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But whoâs counting?
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I pulled open my door and ran smack into my gay neighbour, who was trying to fit his key into his lock. He was hampered by a broken arm and a crutch, his face a riot of bruises and cuts.
I stammered, âJesus, what happened?â
He gave me a look of withering contempt. âThe gaybashers. You said not to worry about them. But guess what? You were wrong.â
I felt dreadful. He had asked for help and what had I done but ignore him?
âLet me help you with that.â I pointed to the key.
He near spat, âHelp? I think Iâve had as much of your assistance as Iâd ever want.â
âIâm so sorry.â I meant it.
He gave me his full attention. âIndeed, you are â a sorry excuse for a human being.â Got his door open and slammed it in my face.
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I went to The Quays on, yeah, Quay Street. Iâd never had a drink there me whole life as itâs regarded as a tourist haunt. I stepped up to the counter, ordered a large Jameson and a pint of stout. The barman â non-national, of course â poured the pint too fast and didnât let it settle, but I was in a hurry. AfraidIâd change my mind. I gave