your little girl.â
A high-pitched squeal of laughter caught Johnâs attention and his smile grew.
But when he turned, he frowned at what he saw. Heather was pulling a high-sided wagon. Adana sat inside, leaning over the edge, staring at the ground rolling past her as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.
His eyes reluctantly touched on Heather, who was looking everywhere but at him. She had put a down vest over her shirt, a concession to the brisk spring weather.
Though she still looked as if she was heading to a fashion shoot, the down-home clothes were a reminder of happier times. When they would go out riding. When he would watch her run barrels, timing her and coaching her.
He shook his head, as if to dislodge the errant memories he wouldnât allow himself to indulge in.
âWhereâs Alice?â he asked. He set the pail down and halfheartedly walked toward them. They met halfway between the pens and the house, the tapping of Montyâs hammer echoing over the yard.
âDaddy, ride,â Adana called out, reaching for him. He picked her up, settling her against his hip.
âShe left this morning to visit her aunt,â Heather said. âShe asked me to help out with Adana while she was gone.â
John narrowed his eyes at the thought of Heather taking care of his daughter. âJust for today?â
âItâs fine. I...I can manage. Iâm not familiar with kids, mind you...â
âI sensed that,â he stated, holding Adana a little closer. She laid her head against him, as she often did when she was tired or upset. Did she also feel Heatherâs discomfort?
He felt the same overwhelming need to protect his daughter that he had felt when heâd brought her home from the hospital. He had made a promise to himself that he would protect her, take care of her and make up for all she had lost.
âThatâs why I think I should take care of her,â he added.
âBut youâre busy. I thought...I understood thatâs why Alice and Mom look after her. So you can work?â
âIâll figure a way around it.â He glanced down the fence line toward Monty.
Heather lifted her head, staring him down. âYou donât think Iâm capable.â
In spite of the confrontational tone of her voice, he caught a glimpse of hurt in her features. His resolve wavered a moment, but then he felt the warmth of Adanaâs head against his neck.
âItâs not how capable you are. Itâs how willing you are.â He sighed for a moment, then continued. âLike I said, I sensed that youâre not comfortable around her. I donât want my daughter to feel like sheâs unwanted.â
Heather couldnât hold his gaze. Her eyes, with those impossibly long lashes, lowered protectively. âIâm sorry,â she said, her voice barely above a whisper. âI know how it looks. Itâs just...she reminds me...â She stopped there, her hands twisting together.
She seemed genuinely upset.
âReminds you of...â he prodded.
She bit her lip, shook her head, then slowly, almost reluctantly, looked up. He caught the faintest shimmer of tears in her eyes. âDoesnât matter,â she said. âAdana is a sweet little girl and I donât mind taking care of her.â
But John couldnât ignore the brief glimpse of sorrow in her eyes and in her voice. Older emotions sifted into the moment and he thought of her upbringing. âIs this because of your mother?â
She frowned and he realized heâd barked up the wrong tree.
âNo. Nothing to do with her.â She waved off his comment with one hand. But that didnât erase his curiosity. There was more to this than she was letting on.
âI can take care of her,â Heather said, reaching out for his daughter. âI know you and Dad have a lot of work to do before calving.â
Still John hesitated, glancing from