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normal. I resent myself, I let
this go too far. No more though. I can’t risk my own happiness or my life. How
could I think we would be ok? He’s not going to change. Nothing will change.
How can I make sure he stays out of my life?

 
    I stay in bed
for a few more hours before deciding it’s time to get up. I get my phone from
the floor and put it on my desk when I notice a note Erin has left me.

 
    I’m here for you if you ever need me.
Don’t shut me out. I love you!

 
    BFF

 
    I smile as I put
the note back down. I know she wants to be here, for me but I can’t drag her
into this mess with Kyle. I don’t want her getting hurt too.

 
    I lift up my
shirt and look at my stomach. There’s a slight yellow and purple bruise. It’s
fairly big and when I touch it, I flinch at how sensitive it is. I walk over to
my desk and pick up the picture frame of Kyle and me from when we went to California to visit his parents. How did everything
change? A single tear falls from my eye. The Kyle who stole my heart isn’t here
anymore. I put the picture frame in the garbage. Today is a new day and I need
to get rid of all the negativity.

 
    I brush away
thoughts of Kyle and get ready. I have to keep telling myself this isn’t my
fault. I sit back on my bed and slowly count to ten. I let out a breath and
open my eyes. I’m here. I’m alive. I need to be stronger. Better. I can do
this.

 
    I get up from my
bed and look at my reflection in the mirror. “Sophia Burns, you deserve to be
happy. You deserve to smile. Sophia Burns, open your eyes and start living your
life.” Wow that feels good to say out loud. I throw on a yellow hoodie and my
black yoga pants. I look at myself in the mirror and promise myself that I’ll
learn how to be happy. I put on my sneakers and head out of my room for a long
walk so I can get things in perspective.

 
    The walk is
soothing and helps me clear my mind. I don’t want to be anywhere near Kyle but
getting an order of protection won’t do anything for me. It is a piece of paper
that no one cares about enforcing. His parents will bail him out of jail
anyway. I feel like I can’t ever be alone or else Kyle will get his way. I’m in
my own world when I hear a sweet and loving voice behind me. “Good morning.” My
heart goes crazy and I start to sweat. This isn’t good. I have to say
something, this time, anything to him!

 
    I whip my head
to him. “Morning,” I casually say. I’m lame there’s no question about it. He
looks so sexy with his sweat pants and red hoodie. His thick dark brown hair is
messy and I just want to run my hands through it.

 
    “I heard you had
dinner with Conner last night. How was it?” He winks at me and I melt. I miss
him. This is how I should feel. I want Adam back.

 
    “It was so fun!”
I sound a little too happy and tell myself to be cool. “We talked for a little
and he ate my food.” I nervously laugh. “How’ve you been?” We stop walking and
I turn to him to get a better look in his eyes. I remember his blue eyes and
how calm I would feel every time I looked at him. I can’t explain why he makes
me feel this way but I don’t care-I love how he makes me feel. I love him.

 
    “Good,
real good, and yourself?” He smiles at me again. I can look at his smile every day for the rest of my life.
I want to promise him so much. Our friendship means the world to me and I hope
that when we do become friends again, that relationship will turn to us being
lovers. He’ll always be my best friend. The distance and time doesn’t matter.
He’s back for a reason and now it’s my time to take charge.   “I’m ok.” I look up and see him staring at
me. “What are you looking at?” I laugh.

 
    Adam shakes his
head and runs his hand through his brown hair. “Nothing, I’m glad I decided to
come to this school.”

 
    I touch his arm
and smile. “I’m glad you decided to come here too.” We continue walking toward
my