take it back. It’s too late, I’m already dating him. You don’t get to break us up and still date Amelia. Am I supposed to just be alone while I sit back and watch you and her betray my trust?”
“That’s what I’m trying to say. I want the both of us to try again. I made a huge mistake letting you go and I figured that you wouldn’t want me back after my last fuck up so I moved on. Baby, I’m so sorry. I love you.”
He rocked my world off of its axis with his admission. He said the words that I’ve been longing to hear him say for over a year. Tears pricked at the back of my eyes and I blinked them away. I wanted to believe his words but my gut was telling me that it was all lies, yet again. He’s lied to me time and time again and this time I wasn’t going to fall for it, especially now that I have someone special in my life.
“Where is this coming from Kenneth? You treated me like shit and now you want me back. You only want to try again because you see that I’m happy, and not only am I happy, but I’m happy with your best friend. Karma is a bitch, and now you know how it feels,” I stood up from the couch and walked to the kitchen. I needed to get some space away from him. I had to fight the urge to take him back.
I leaned against the counter and placed my hands over my eyes. I was trying to block out all of the thoughts that were racing through my head. He followed me into the kitchen and stood directly in front of me. We were silent for a while until he spoke, “I know you’re upset, and you have every right to be. But you can’t tell me that you don’t miss me. I know that you love me, and love just doesn’t go away,” he said in a soft tone.
I shook my head as if it would make his voice go away. This is what he does to me, he comes over and talks his way right back into my life. I felt my resolve softening and he could sense it, he took one step forward and caressed my face. I leaned into his hand and closed my eyes, I missed his touch.
“See, we belong together,” he said, “You miss me just as much as I miss you,” he leaned in to kiss me. I opened my eyes and saw his face coming closer to mines. I quickly stepped to the side; I couldn’t allow this to happen.
“No! You don’t get to interrupt my life with your bullshit. You had your chance to be with me and you decided that you wanted to be with someone else. You always choose other women over me and you think that I’m just supposed to be here waiting for you.”
“It’s not like that…”
“Listen to me; listen to me for once in your life. I’m with Joshua and he has been nothing but good to me. I’m not about to ruin what we have to be your damned concubine. He actually respects me and would never put me through the things that you have. So you need to just leave,” I said as I walked towards the door. I had to do this quickly before he talked his way back into my life.
“ Okay, I’ll respect your wishes for now. Just know that if he ever does anything to hurt you, I’ll knock his ass out,” he joined me at the door that I opened for him. “I’ll see you around, and I meant everything I said,”. He leaned in to kiss me on the lips and I turned my face so that he kissed my cheek instead.
“Goodbye Kenneth,” I said sternly as he walked out of the door.
I headed back to my room to pour myself another glass of wine. A much bigger one then the last. Where in the hell did he get off pulling a stunt like that? I silently patted myself on the back for my behavior even though I wish that I didn’t let him touch me. I’m sure that Joshua wouldn’t have liked that all, but I did the absolute best that I could, considering the circumstances. I picked up my phone and texted and Patrice and Jasmine.
To: Patrice, Jasmine
From: Nicole
We have to have lunch or dinner tomorrow, no exceptions. I need to talk A.S.A.P., Kenneth just left my house.
Nicole – The