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here and now.
    “I wasn’t meant to be queen,” she said, her tone strong, a sharp contrast to what she actually felt.
    “Perhaps I wasn’t meant to leave.” His words burned through her. Because he had left. It didn’t matter what should have happened, only what had.
    “Why bother turning it over, Xander? It’s what happened. You did leave. And things have changed. We didn’t freeze in time here while you were gone like I’m sure you imagined we did. We went on. Things have happened, things that can’t be undone. I would have been...a silly and selfish princess back then anyway. And now...now it just couldn’t be.”
    “It’s hard not to turn it over here, though, isn’t it?”
    She put her palms flat on the table, her heart pounding, blood rushing through her ears. “Why did you come back? Really. I mean...what changed? You left, and no one ever thought you would be back, but here you are now, and you’re dragging me into it, so I want to know why.”
    He shook his head, didn’t say anything. He only stared out the windows into the darkness outside.
    “Answer me, Xander,” she said. “I have a right to know why you’ve crashed back into my life.”
    “Because there was nothing out there,” he said. “No answers. It fixed nothing. If Stavros wanted the throne, if it didn’t throw Eva’s future into disarray, I would never have come back. But I don’t do any good by being gone. I’m not sure I’ll do much good being back. I’m not sure I’m even capable of doing good. I think that where I’m concerned, all of the bad might run too deep.” When he said it like that, she believed he might be right. “But I came back, because if I didn’t it would stay broken. And now that I’m here, it might all remain that way, but at least it’s my broken mess and not theirs.”
    “You love them, don’t you?”
    “I don’t love easily,” he said, his voice rough. “But I would die for them.”
    “That’s something.”
    “A sliver of humanity?”
    “Yes,” she said, taking a deep breath. “What am I doing here, Xander? You’ve given me a reason. The press. But I have to tell you, I’m not sure I believe it.”
    “It’s part of it,” he said.
    “I need all of it.”
    “Do you want an honest answer?”
    “If you know how to give one.”
    “I don’t lie, Layna, it’s the one sin I don’t indulge in. Do you know why?”
    She put her fork down. “I’m on the edge of my seat.”
    “Because people lie to protect themselves. To make people like them. To hide what they’ve done because they’re ashamed. I have no shame, and I don’t care if people like me. My sins are public property.”
    “Then give me an honest answer.”
    “I thought I might marry you,” he said, his tone conversational, light. As though he’d mentioned that it was a clear night and the food was lovely, and not that he’d been considering asking her to be his wife.
    “You did?” she asked, her lips numb, her entire body numb suddenly, from fingertips on down.
    A wife. Xander’s wife.
    It was impossible. And she didn’t want it anyway. Her life was in the convent, it was serving people and living simply. It was shunning the frivolous things in the world. Denying passions and finding contentment in the small things. In the things that were worthy.
    It was this palace. This man. They washed those old memories in brilliant colors, where for years they’d always been faded.
    And now she could see again, so clearly, how lovely it had all been. She could taste the excitement of it. That secret ache bloomed, flourished, let her dream. Let her see the glitter, the sparkle and what might be for one beautiful moment.
    But it only lasted for a moment. Until a root of bitter anger rose up and choked out the bloom.
    “Obviously,” he continued, “that can’t happen now.”
    She felt the sting of his words like a slap. “Obviously not. What would people think if you took me as a wife?”
    “I only meant because