Timy?â
âSure.â
âMaybe Iâll be a little late tonight, Timy.â
âAwright, Danny. But show up.â
âO. K., Timy.â
T HE MUSIC MASTERâS playing grew softer and softer, until only a suggestion of the melody came into the room underneath, where the poet sat with Anna. At last, they listened to the wavering strains without considering who was playing.
Anna put her head on the poetâs breast and forgot. He smoothed her light hair, moved his lips over her face. He said:
âDo you know, Anna, what tonight is?â
âIâm happy.â
âFor us, itâs the night of all nights. Do you understand, my darling? Until tonight, I was dying. But Iâm not afraid now. I wonât be afraid.â
âYou wonât die.â
âNo, I wonât, my Anna. Now I know that. Do you know what weâll do?âgo someplace where the air is clean and thin, where I can stay alive and be better. Weâll work and write. Would you like people to say, âThereâs the wife of a great manâ?â
âIt would be nice.â
âWeâll have children, Anna. You know, tonight I was thinking of how much just a small life can hold. And I always come to the same picture. Thereâs a giant of a fire in a big stone fireplace, with the flames flickering all over the room. Beams overhead, and beyond the beams deep shadows. And a deep rug before the fire. You sit thereâperhaps you knit. I have the picture, light running from your hair, and shadows all over your face. You see, your head is bent a little to look at your knitting â¦â
She laughed and buried her head deeper; he could feel her whole body trembling with her laughter. Her whisper came, muffled: âI couldnât be happier then, Johnny.â
âYou wouldââ
âDo we have many children, Johnny?â
âThree, fourâtoo many?â
âNever too many.â She glanced up, kissed him, and whispered: âWhat else do you see, Johnny?â
âStill you. I sit on the other side of the fire, but I canât take my eyes from you. You are beautifulââ
âHeâs stopped playing.â
âDonât be afraid.â
âNo, no, but Iâd better go to him for a while. Then Iâll be back, later, I promise you. Iâll have everything ready. I promise you.â
âAll right.â
Then she was gone, and Edwards sat without moving, looking at the window where the snowflakes appeared like spots of light from the dark. Then he took his diary, wrote:
âTonight seems as long as all the time Iâve lived, perhaps because Iâve abandoned a philosophy, found a new one. Anna told me Iâll live, and I believe her. I wonder why it took me so long to discover what the priest knew all the time.
âIâve been chasing shadows for too long, and now itâs almost too lateâbut not entirely. Anna loves me. I know that, and I know that I love her. All that is real, and out of it I shall make a real life.
âI donât know where weâll goâbut somewhere where life depends upon work, work with oneâs body. Where I can make things over.
âNow Iâm tired, but I canât stay here any more. Iâll go out, walk for a while in the snow, and when I come back, Anna will be there, waiting.â
But when he put the diary away, he knew that he wouldnât write in it many times more. Already, he was able to smile at what he had written.
A NNA,â he said. âIs that you, Anna? Do I hear you?â
âYesâbut put on a light, Claus!â
From the door, she heard the music master turn in the piano-seat, and now he could see her where she was, standing, a dark, slim figure against the light, her skirt flowing out from her narrow waist, her small straight shoulders. He smiled, gently, easily, while one hand reached back to caress the keys of the piano. A