underwear on her and slide her legs into a
fresh pair of sweats, Baghda watches from the sidelines. I try
explaining while doing the task, but one glance at Baghda and I can tell
she's not listening.
"Your mother said I can leave when you got home," Baghda says.
"That's fine," I say as I wash my hands, and before I know it
Baghda has Houdini'd on me.
I wheel Shelley into the kitchen. Our usually pristine kitchen is a
disaster. Baghda hasn't cleaned up the dishes, which are now piled in
the sink, and she didn't do such a hot job of wiping the floor after
Shelley's earlier mess.
I prepare Shelley's dinner and wipe up the mess.
Shelley drawls out the word ‘school,’ which really sounds like ‘cool,’
but I know what she means.
"Yeah, it was my first day back," I tell her as I blend her food and
set it on the table. I spoon soupy food into her mouth while I keep
talking. "And my new chemistry teacher, Mrs. Peterson, should be a
boot camp instructor. I scanned the syllabus. The woman can't go a
week without scheduling a test or a quiz. This year isn't going to be
easy."
My sister looks at me, decoding what I've told her. Her intense
expression says she's giving me support and understanding without
having to say the words. Because every word that comes out of her
mouth is a struggle. Sometimes I want to say the words for her
because I feel her frustration as if it's my own.
"You didn't like Baghda?" I ask quietly.
My sister shakes her head. And she doesn't want to talk about it; I
can tell by the way she tenses her mouth.
"Be patient with her," I tell her. "It's not easy coming into a new
house and not knowing what to do."
When Shelley finishes eating, I bring her magazines so she can
scan them. My sister loves magazines. While she's busy flipping pages,
I stick some cheese between two slices of bread for my own dinner
then sit at the table to start my homework while I eat.
I hear the garage door open just as I pull out the notebook paper
Mrs. Peterson gave me to write my ‘respect’ paper.
"Brit, where are you?" my mom yells from the foyer.
"In the kitchen," I call out.
My mom saunters into the kitchen with a Neiman Marcus bag on her
arm. "Here, this is for you."
I reach in the bag and pull out a light blue Geren Ford designer top.
"Thanks," I say, not making a big deal about it in front of Shelley, who
didn't get anything from my mom. Not that my sister cares. She's too
focused on the best- and worst-dressed pictures of celebrities and all
their shiny jewelry.
"It'll go with those dark denims I bought you last week," she says
as she pulls out frozen steaks from the freezer and starts defrosting
them in the microwave. "So . . . how was everything with Baghda when
you got home?"
"Not the best," I tell her. "You really need to train her." I'm not
surprised she doesn't respond.
My dad walks through the door a minute later, grumbling about
work. He owns a computer chip manufacturing company and has prepped
us that this is a lean year, but my mom still goes out and buys stuff and
my dad still bought me a BMW for my birthday.
"What's for dinner?" my dad asks as he loosens his tie. He looks
tired and worn, as usual.
My mom glances at the microwave. "Steak."
"I'm not in the mood for heavy food," he says. "Just something
light."
My mom turns off the microwave in a huff. "Eggs? Spaghetti?" she
says, listing suggestions to deaf ears.
My dad walks out of the kitchen. Even when he's physically here,
his mind is still on the job. "Whatever. Just something light," he calls
out.
It's times like these I feel sorry for my mom. She doesn't get
much attention from my dad. He's either working or on a business trip
or just plain doesn't want to deal with us. "I'll make a salad," I tell her
as I pull lettuce out of the fridge.
She seems thankful, if her small smile is any indication, for the
help. We work side-by-side in silence. I set the table while my mom
brings the salad,
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