share of meals and had done more than her share of the laundry. She even attended most of his firm's insufferable socials, ever the lawyer's dutiful wife. Though Peter cited her consuming career as the cause, it was not the reason their relationship had derailed. Neither was the infertility issue. At painfully introspective moments like these, which only came after the breakup, Gwen realized her heart hadn't been in the marriage from the outset As hard as Peter tried, one person cannot carry a romance. After he finally threw his hands up and walked away from their pleasant but passionless relationship Gwen assumed the lion's share of the blame.
Unwelcome childhood memories stirred. Gwen could picture her mother's face. Not the current surgically pulled and heavily painted version, but the youthful stunning face of Gwen's childhood. How Savard remembered her mother's pained half smile that failed to conceal her disappointment when the A wasn't an A+ or when the silver piano prize wasn't gold or when the state scholarship wasn't a Rhodes scholarship. Gwen imagined her mother's youthful face, lips locked in that letdown grin, reassuring her how much better off she would be without Peter. Gwen's stomach tightened. Like every day since Peter had left, she decided it best to put off telling her mother for another day.
The unadorned walls amplified Savard's sense of emptiness until it became oppressive. She needed to escape the reminders of her failed marriage, which explained why the country's Bug Czar packed for a business trip that could have been handled over the phone.
NEW HAVEN, CONNECTICUT
Gwen arrived in the early evening feeling rested. A self-confessed '70s music addict, she had passed the six-hour drive--which accounted for the longest stress-free stretch in Gwen's recent memory--listening to her favorite CDs, including Elton John's Captain Fantastic, Fleetwood Mac's Rumors, and Supertramp's Breakfast in America.
Driving through New Haven she was flooded with nostalgic memories of her postgraduate days at Yale, especially when she passed by her old apartment block. In sixteen years nothing had changed from the outside. Slowing to a halt at the front door, she could practically smell the exotic flavors that permeated her cramped studio apartment year round thanks to the thick hallway carpets, which absorbed her multi-ethnic neighbors' cooking, magnified the aromas, and then released them. Gwen wondered if her unit still had the same blue and pink pastel-colored walls, which she and her friends had impulsively slapped on one day and regretted thereafter.
Her career since graduation had been so demanding that in retrospect the four years spent completing a PhD at Yale while working two part-time jobs struck her as carefree by comparison. By college, Gwen had accepted her driving ambition as part of her makeup; neither good nor bad, but as much a part of her as her passion for travel or her tireless work ethic. Most of her fellow students kept the goal of their PhD as their primary focus. Not Gwen. She planned her life well beyond the degree. But she never envisioned a career within government. As a student, she assumed she would get her own lab and a national health research grant. To one day have a shot at a Nobel Prize like her mentor, Dr. Isaac Moskor.
Savard was surprised to realize that she hadn't seen Isaac in almost four years. He never left New Haven. And she rarely found time to make it back. They had kept in touch by e-mail and phone, but Isaac wasn't much of a phone-talker and even less of a social writer. Professionally, Gwen tried to keep abreast of Moskor's research because many considered him the leading researcher into antiviral antibiotics. Though fiercely secretive with his work, he trusted Gwen enough to share breakthroughs with her.
Driving by her favorite student haunts, Gwen meandered her way across New Haven. Eventually she reached the sleepy middle-class neighborhood at the edge of town where