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blushing with pride, in 1915, and married her a year later.
    The reason for that was perfectly simple and straightforward, of course: he had fallen deeply in love with her, and remained so until the day he died. The real puzzle, and one recognized by the more discerning, was why Letitia shouldhave married Edward; beautiful, sparkling, witty as she was, and he so quiet, so shy, so modest. It was on Julian’s twenty-first when, given that this was London in 1941, she still managed to orchestrate a very good birthday party for him (supper and dancing at the gallant Savoy, which like most of the great London hotels was resolutely refusing even to acknowledge that the war was much more than a minor inconvenience), that she told him: ‘You’re old enough to know now, my angel, and I don’t want anyone giving you a garbled version.’ She had been engaged to and much in love with a young officer in the Guards, Harry Whigham, who had gone to France, and been blown to pieces before even her first letter had reached him. Confronted by this and the almost equally appalling fact that virtually every other young man in England was facing the same fate, and terrified at seventeen by the prospect of spinsterhood, she had seen salvation in Edward Morell. He would not be going to France because he was a farmer; he was good-looking, he was kind, and he was modestly well off. Still in shock from Harry Whigham’s death, she accepted Edward’s proposal of marriage only three months later; they were married two months after that, this being wartime and the normal conventions set aside, and it was only after the birth of James that she properly realized what she had done.
    ‘But Julian, darling,’ she said, filling her champagne glass and raising it to him for at least the dozenth time that night, ‘I don’t want you to think it was a bad marriage. I made Edward, your father, very happy, he never knew for an instant that he wasn’t the great love of my life, and to the day he died I was certainly his.’
    She said this not with any kind of conceit, but a serene conviction; Julian looked at her and leant forward and kissed her on the cheek.
    ‘Yes,’ he said, ‘but what about you? Were you happy? It sounds like hell.’
    ‘Oh, not at all,’ said Letitia lightly, ‘I’m not the going-through-hell sort. You of all people ought to know that. Positive, that’s what we are, my angel, both of us; I made the most of it, and I was perfectly happy. There was you, and there was James, and Edward was the sweetest man on God’s earth. The only really sad thing was when your little sisters died. Butyou know all about that, and you were a great comfort to me at the time. Even though you were only two. Now let’s dance, this is getting maudlin, and then we’d better – oh, hell, there’s the siren. Shall we go to the shelter or dance?’
    ‘I’d like to dance,’ said Julian, slightly reluctantly, for he had often longed to talk to her about the death of his small twin sisters, and had always been briskly discouraged, ‘with the bravest and most beautiful woman in the room.’
    Edward Morell had died in 1939. For the duration of the war, James ran the farm, while Julian enlisted in the Signals (rejecting the infantry regiments as too predictable), and spent a frustrated two years in England, rising to the rank of captain; finally by a combination of shameless string-pulling on the part of Letitia’s cousin, a colonel in Intelligence, and some sheer bloody-minded persistence on his own, he managed to gain an interview with the SOE, the Special Operations Executive directing the British leg of the Resistance movement.
    Julian had a considerable talent for languages, he was a brilliant radio operator, and he was immensely self-confident; he was sent for the preliminary selection for F Section, and passed with distinction. He then went to Scotland where he learnt such assorted skills as living off the land, handling explosives, dropping off