âYouâll never get it.â
His expression suddenly softened and he hunkered down in front of her. His eyes were level with hers and filled with so much tenderness that Kelly wanted to gaze into them forever. âI do get it,â he said quietly. âOne of the things I admire most about you is your fierce independence.â
âThen how could you even think about taking that away from me and making me nothing more than your appendage?â
His lips quirked with amusement. âPlenty of wives are able to exert their independence. Marriage isnât likely to join two people like us at the hip. I am capable of compromise, Kelly.â His gaze caught hers. âAre you?â
The question caught her off guard. âNot if it means losing who I am.â
âI want to marry you because of who you are,â he declared. âWhy would I want you to change?â
âThatâs what marriage does. It changes people.â
âNot if they fight it.â
She had no ready answer for that. She was beginning to weaken and he knew it. She could read the gleam of triumph in his eyes. With his hands resting on her thighs, with his masculine scent luring her, all of the old yearnings were beginning. Heat flooded her body and made her reason vanish. She had wanted Jordan Adams as far back as she could remember. She had ached for his touch, hungered for just one of the wicked kisses that he seemed to share so freely with other women.
âYouâve never even kissed me,â she murmured without thinking.
She hadnât meant it as a dare, only as an observation, but Jordan was quick to seize the opening. His hands, softer now than they had been when he was working his fatherâs ranch, but still strong, cupped her face. His thumbs gently grazed her lips until they parted on a sigh of pure pleasure. His mouth curved into a half smile at that and, still smiling, he touched his lips to hers.
The kiss was like the caress of warm velvet, soft and soothing and alluring. It made her head spin. The touch of his tongue sent heat spiraling through her, wicked curls of heat that reached places she was certain had never before been touched.
âOh, Jordan,â she murmured on another sigh as he gathered her close and deepened the kiss until she was swimming in a whirlpool of sensation.
In her wildest imagination she hadnât known, hadnât even guessed at the joy a mere kiss could bring. This was Jordan, though, the man sheâd always believed to be her other half. If she had known his touch would really be like this, she would have fought for him long ago. She wouldnât have waited, patient and silent, for him to wake up and notice her. She would have overcome her shyness, shoved aside all of her fears of rejection and tried to seduce him.
If only she were more than a means to an end, if only he really, truly loved her, she would say yes to him in a heartbeat, if only to guarantee that incredibly rare moments like this would never end.
When at last he released her, Jordan looked almost as dazed as she felt. His hands lingered on her face as if he couldnât bear to break the contact.
âWas that a yes? â he asked.
Kelly listened to her heart and heard yes repeated over and over. Her head, though, was louder. âNo,â she said with more regret than sheâd ever felt about anything sheâd ever done.
âButâ¦â
She touched a finger to his lips. âDonât argue. This isnât about all the clearheaded, rational arguments you can mount. Itâs not about bullying me until you get your way.â
Jordan looked as lost as if sheâd been talking about astrophysics. âWhat, then?â
âThink about it,â she advised him, hiding a grin at his confusion. âIâm sure it will come to you eventually.â
Now that heâd really, truly kissed her, now that she knew the first faint stirrings of all the