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wanted a full partner, not some Navy flyboy. He hadn’t been with another woman since then.
    Yet what tore him up the most was the fact that when he’d called Leigh to tell her Jake was dead, she hadn’t come to him. She hadn’t comforted him beyond the telephone condolences of that one call. She hadn’t come to the memorial. She’d sent Marie a card—she might have even had a card sent by one of her assistants—but she hadn’t called her. That’s when he realized they must never have been good together in the first place. If the tables had been turned and she’d lost someone close, he would have been there for her even if they were no longer a couple.
    They’d spent so much time together, the four of them. Didn’t she grieve Jake? Sympathize with Marie? Worry about Patrick’s feelings? It had baffled and hurt him. He felt he had never known her at all.
    He looked at Angie and said, “So he just kind of wandered off?”
    “Yeah. At first he was too busy with school, then he said he just couldn’t watch my struggle, it was too difficult for him. This guy wants to be a doctor! And he couldn’t bear seeing me in pain? Pah! Then one of my friends said he was seeing someone else. I cried. For an hour. But something tells me I got off easy. I’m going to need a much tougher man in my life. I’ll hold out for that.”
    He grinned suddenly. His immediate thought was, And I’ll need a much stronger woman. Could it really be that simple? “You should.”
    “You don’t look at all scary when you smile,” she said in a rather soft voice.
    “You said I didn’t look scary before.”
    “Yeah, well, I didn’t want you to get all bigheaded. So, Patrick Riordan, what’s got you all messed up?”
    He slid back in his chair. “I thought we agreed not to talk about me?” He took a sip of coffee.
    “I certainly don’t intend to insist, but when you’re sharing, you know, there’s usually a little give and take....”
    “I’m a Navy pilot,” he said after a short pause. “I was on a mission and another pilot flying in the same sortie was killed. Shot down. Right beside me. We were flying cover for Marine rescue choppers near Kandahar, avoiding missiles, and then… The unexpected. A heat seeker came out of nowhere. He was my closest friend. I was his lead. He was my wingman.”
    “I’m so sorry. I can understand why you didn’t want to talk about that.”
    “Someone would’ve told you eventually. Jake went down and it’s time for me to get orders—a new assignment somewhere. I just feel like I need a little time to decide if I really want that life. I always thought I did. But lately I’ve been thinking that it might not fit with the other things I’d like to have—like a family, for instance. Jake left behind a wife and two-year-old son.”
    “But do you love flying?” she asked him.
    “I always have, but that…” His voice trailed off.
    “That’s one of the things I’m struggling with, too, Patrick. But I’ve realized that there are fewer NASCAR drivers killed than girls like me who were singing along with the radio one minute and dead the next. None of those people on commercial jets on 9/11 were taking chances. Besides, if you’re doing something you believe in and are expertly trained to do… But then, you might have to ask the woman in your life before you listen to me.”
    He just stared at her for a second. “There’s no woman.”
    “Oh,” she said.
    “And my friends call me Paddy.”
    She smiled at him. “I like that.”
    “What’s your next move, Angie?”
    She took a deep breath. “Oh, I’ll probably end up going back to medical school eventually, but not—”
    “Medical school?” he asked, wide-eyed. “You mean you’re not getting some degree in basket weaving or tennis?”
    She laughed lightly. “Nah. I’m a brainiac with limited social skills, as you can probably see.”
    He shook his head, but his mouth was still open. He hadn’t been ready for this. “You