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are always discontented about your home. It’s no use; the only thing is for you to earn your own living.”
    â€œI will earn my own living.”
    â€œWhat will you do? Will you be examined for a pupil teacher? That is a very nice occupation for girls.”
    â€œWhat chance would I have in a competitive exam against Goulburn girls? They all have good teachers and give up their time to study. I only have Old Harris, and he is the most idiotic old animal alive; besides, I loathe the very thought of teaching. I’d as soon go on the wallaby.”
    â€œYou are not old enough to be a general servant or a cook; you have not experience enough to be a housemaid; you don’t take to sewing, and there is no chance of being accepted as a hospital nurse: you must confess there is nothing you can do. You are really a very useless girl for your age.”
    â€œThere are heaps of things I could do.”
    â€œTell me a few of them.”
    I was silent. The professions at which I felt I had the latent power to excel, were I but given a chance, were in a sphere farabove us, and to mention my feelings and ambitions to my matter-of-fact, practical mother would bring upon me worse ridicule than I was already forced to endure day by day.
    â€œMention a few of the things you could do.”
    I might as well have named flying as the profession I was thinking of. Music was the least unmentionable of them, so I brought it forward.
    â€œMusic! But it would take years of training and great expense before you could earn anything at that! It is quite out of the question. The only thing for you to do is to settle down and take interest in your work, and help make a living at home, or else go out as a nurse-girl, and work your way up. If you have any ability in you, it would soon show. If you think you could do such strokes, and the home work is not good enough for you, go out and show the world what a wonderful creature you are.”
    â€œMother, you are unjust and cruel!” I exclaimed. “You do not understand one at all. I never thought I could do strokes. I cannot help being constituted so that grimy manual labor is hateful to me, for it is hateful to me, and I hate it more and more every day, and you can preach and preach till you go black in the face, and still I’ll hate it more than ever. If I have to do it all my life, and if I’m cursed with a long life, I’ll hate it just as much at the end as I do now. I’m sure it’s not any wish of mine that I’m born with inclinations for better things. If I could be born again, and had the designing of myself, I’d be born the lowest and coarsest-minded person imaginable, so that I could find plenty of companionship, or I’d be born an idiot, which would be better still.”
    â€œSybylla!” said my mother in a shocked tone. “It is a wonder God doesn’t strike you dead; I never heard—”
    â€œI don’t believe there is a God,” I said fiercely, “and if there is, He’s not the merciful being He’s always depicted, or He wouldn’t be always torturing me for His own amusement.”
    â€œSybylla, Sybylla! That I should ever have nurtured a child to grow up like this! Do you know that—”
    â€œI only know that I hate this life. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it,” I said vehemently.
    â€œTalk about going out to earn your own living! Why, there’snot a woman living would have you in her house above a day. You are a perfect she-devil. Oh, God!” And my mother began to cry. “What have I done to be cursed with such a child? There is not another woman in the district with such a burden put upon her. What have I done? I can only trust that my prayers to God for you will soften your evil heart.”
    â€œIf your prayers are answered, it’s more than ever mine were,” I retorted.
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prayers!” said my mother, with scorn. “The horror of a