pay in kisses, Iâll carry my suitcase myself.â
The expression in Deanâs eyes reminded me of the way Ophelia stared at me whenever she wanted to stay inside rather than go out in the cold. âAw, come on, Tina. Nick got a kiss.â
I arched a brow. âHe was paying me back for fixing his computer. That was his choice of payment, not mine.â
âWell, shit.â He blew out a breath, then grinned. âGuess Iâll have to work on my strategy.â
I hoped his strategy wasnât anything like Nickâs had been. Nick hadnât asked for that kiss. Heâd taken it. Or given it. I honestly couldnât say which. If Dean wanted more than a kissâand something told me he didâheâd damn well better be asking me first.
The trouble was, I had no idea what my reply would be.
Chapter 4
The foremanâs quarters were actually quite nice. In addition to a private bathroom, the room boasted its own television and recliner, a sturdy wooden desk and chair, along with a dresser, nightstand, and closet. Iâd spent the night in a couple of hotels along my route that werenât as well appointed, nor had they been as clean. I wouldnât have expected a bunch of cowboys to be any great shakes as housekeepers, but theyâd obviously had some practice.
I was surprised Joe hadnât taken advantage of the opportunity to move in there, although I was glad he hadnât. Somehow I couldnât see sleeping in the bunkhouse or bumping Joe or Calvin out of their room. I didnât even mind that the bed was only a twin.
The guys carried in my bags and thankfully didnât linger.
âWe know you must be tired,â Dean said when he caught me yawning. âWeâll be in the mess hall if you decide you want some company.â He pointed toward a door at the far end of the room. âThat opens onto the hallway behind the kitchen so you can get to the mess hall without going outside. Calvinâs room is next to yours.â
âThanks.â My smile became another yawn. âDonât bother waiting up for me. Iâm about done in.â
He laughed. âAnd you were gonna drive to Cheyenne tonight.â
âYeah, well, best laid plans and all that.â I said good night and closed my door.
Strange how quickly we slide into that mind-set. My room at the hotel. My room at home. My apartmentâalthough I didnât have an apartment anymore and was essentially homeless. I couldnât see Mom throwing me out, but without a place to call my own, I felt as though Iâd been set adrift, leaving me vulnerable to the entreaties of a bunch of cowboys who seemed to want nothing more than the pleasure of my company.
I didnât wonder why anymore, but this was no place for me. After their computers were debugged, they would have no need of me, and I certainly had no intention of becoming the bunkhouse whore.
As if I could. Bunkhouse virgin would be more like it. Anyone taking on the whore job would need far more experience than Iâd ever had. I doubted that reading steamy romance novels and fantasizing about hot, sweaty firefighters qualified me for the job.
Exhaustion left my brain wide open for thoughts of that nature to creep in. Whether I was ever intimate with a man didnât matter in the greater scheme of things. No planets would go undiscovered. No grand plans for world peace would be derailed.
Then again, maybe they would. Perhaps my unborn sons and daughters would be the very ones to save the planet from global warming and terrorism.
Or not. God, I was going nuts. I needed to shed a layer ofâ¦something. I had no idea what. Inhibitions? My own persona and history?
Ophelia licked my hand as though she understood my problemâor at least wanted to help.
I considered joining the men in the mess hall. The bed, however, was much too inviting. Recalling that Iâd traveled through several states and three time