had you. Want me to get a doctorâs order for a sedative?â
âYou never finished.â
Tish gave her son a look that wouldâve scared anyone else into cold silence before she spoke. âThank you for reminding me that I gave up a career for you and your father. And no, dear . . . Iâm not crazy. Iâm just trying to make the best of a bad situation and thatâs what you need to do, too. Now letâs get those pictures of Julie Love up in your room.â
âMy cell.â
âThe power of positive thinking, Todd, positive thinking.â
âMother. Iâm behind bars on two murder one counts. My trial starts in the morning. They had to bus jurors in from another county. Whatâs positive about that?â
Todd Adamsâs voice took on a whining quality. His mother didnât notice.
âWhatâs positive? The fact that the world will hear what a wonderful son and husband you are. Theyâll hear about your golf scholarship, your job, your degree, your beautiful home and family . . . thatâs whatâs positive.â
âAnd I donât want those pictures up in my cell.â
âRoom.â
âOK . . . room . . . whatever! I donât want those pictures up in my room !â
âBut why? That doesnât make any sense.â
âBecause . . .â He paused. âThey make me depressed. Iâm already miserable in this place. Crappy food, hardly any TV, and itâs not even cable . . .â
âBut photos of you and Julie Love will remind you of all the happy timesââ
âNo they wonât. Theyâll remind me that Iâm here in jail because sheâs dead. Theyâll remind me of home . . . of what Iâm missing.â
âShut up!â It came out like a hiss. Tish turned in her seat to look back at the guard at the door. He was pale and wimpy. The way heâd kept peering in through the glass door, glaring through a hideous set of thick glasses . . . she was positive heâd eavesdropped on every single word she and her son had so stupidly uttered.
His motherâs tone made him sit up straight in his chair and stop the whining.
âHow will it look in front of a jury when they find out you donât have a single photo of Julie Love up in your room?â
âCell. My cell, Mother.â
The two sat in sulky silence, each staring the other down. Finally, Tish Adams broke the silence.
âYour father and I didnât work our fingers to the bone to have our son arrested, much less convicted for first-degree murder. This absolutely will not happen to our family. Now you listen to me and you listen good. You will put up these photos and youâll keep them up. And remember, no friends. Nobody in this facility is your friend, not the guards, not the inmates, not even the chaplain. You have one friend, Todd, and thatâs me. Your mother.â
He wouldnât look up, instead gazing down at his knees like a corrected schoolboy.
âNow wipe that look off your face. Your fatherâs about to come in to visit and then DelVecchio. Iâll get the photos. Understood?â
Todd Adams wouldnât answer.
âI said, understood ?â
âUnderstood, Mother.â
âGood. Youâll see, sweetheart. And donât worry about the Cynthia girl. That will have no bearing on this whatsoever. It was just a stupid mistake on your part, really just careless. It was ancient history . . . all the way back to high school. Nobody cares about that. And, truth be told, if you hadnât been married to someone . . . someone like her . . . youâd have never sought a shoulder to cry on. Thatâs all it was really, just a shoulder to cry on. This will all turn out just fine. Youâll be outof here in no time and back home where you belong. With your father and me.â
Todd Adams said nothing.
Undeterred by her sonâs lack of enthusiasm, she went on.