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moving backwards, and accelerates away from my house.
    ‘What have you been up to lately?’ she asks.
    ‘Looking for a job.’
    ‘Any luck?’ She takes a turn fast and I tense my legs.
    ‘No.’
    ‘What sort of job are you looking for?’
    ‘The standard: banks, multinationals.’ We’re on the canal now, zipping past weeping willows.
    ‘Do you really want to work for a bank or a multinational?’
    She seems distracted, intent on her driving, and I’m irritated that she’s being flippant about what for me is a serious problem. ‘What do you mean?’
    She flashes her beams at a truck and it pulls to the left to let us pass. ‘You don’t seem like the sort of person who’d enjoy being a slave to a faceless business.’
    This is the very sort of attitude that pisses me off with most of the party crowd. They’re rich enough not to work unless they feel like it, so they think the rest of us are idiots for settling for jobs we don’t love. ‘I need the money,’ I explain to her, as I would to a child. ‘I don’t have a choice.’
    ‘I know the feeling,’ she says as we descend into the Ferozepur Road underpass.
    ‘Do you?’
    She turns and gives me a surprised look. ‘No need to sound so condescending.’
    I realize that I’ve offended her, and suddenly I’m upset with myself. ‘I’m sorry.’
    She looks ahead again. ‘I wasn’t talking about needing money. I was saying that I know what it is not to have a choice about working. I have to work, too.’
    I thought Mumtaz was happily unemployed. ‘What sort of work do you do?’
    ‘It’s a secret.’
    ‘What do you mean?’
    ‘I’m going to tell you. I have to, I suppose, since I’ve dragged you out here with no explanation. It’s very sweet of you to do this, by the way.’ Her hand touches my knee, briefly, before returning to the gearshift. ‘I have this thing about friends and secrets. Sometimes when I meet a person I like, I tell them a secret they don’t know me well enough to be told. It lets me judge their potential as a friend.’
    ‘But what happens when they don’t keep your secret?’ I ask.
    She opens a power window and flicks her cigarette out. ‘I don’t know. They always have so far. But I don’t meet many people I like.’
    I light another cigarette and pass it to her. ‘I’m flattered.’
    She accepts the cigarette with a nod. ‘You should be.’ We speed through the Jail Road underpass. ‘But let me tell you what I think about secrets before you decide if you want me to tell you one. Secrets make life more interesting. You can be in a crowded room with someone and touch them without touching, just with a look, because they know a part of you no one else knows. And whenever you’re with them, the two of you are alone, because the you they see no one else can see.’
    I think of the look Nadira gave me at the party.
    Mumtaz turns to me and smiles. ‘Do you still want me to tell you?’ she asks.
    ‘How could I not?’
    ‘But if I don’t feel good about it once I’ve told you, we’ll probably never be friends. Doesn’t that possibility frighten you?’
    ‘It is pretty drastic,’ I admit. ‘But tell me and let’s see what happens.’
    She looks at me and I see that she’s smiling at herself. ‘Here it is. I know the identity of Zulfikar Manto.’ She takes a left on Mall Road.
    ‘The journalist?’
    ‘Precisely.’
    ‘The one who wrote that article about the missing girl in Defense?’
    ‘Among other things, yes.’
    ‘But I didn’t know his identity was a secret.’
    ‘It is. He submits his work by mail and collects his checks from a post office box. No one knows who he is except the editor of the paper that publishes his pieces.’
    She downshifts to second in front of Bagh-i-Jinnah and overtakes a group of teenagers in a car with big alloy wheels and a spoiler.
    ‘So who is Zulfikar Manto?’ I ask.
    She laughs. ‘Me.’
    ‘You?’
    ‘Me. I am Zulfikar Manto.’
    I start to laugh, too. ‘But