town, and the number of officers who called. My sister even made a joke saying . . .â
â. . . Saying what?â he asked when she fell silent.
âSaying that my aunt should be careful, because Eleanor sounded a lot like me at that age.â
He eyed her. âAnd that was a joke?â
âI laughed. I did,â she insisted when she saw the skepticism on his face. âI chuckled and said, âLetâs hope not,â and returned to preparing for my students. I refused to dwell.â
But by refusing to dwell, she had ruthlessly ignored that warning running down her spine. Now Eleanor was lost somewhere in London, because she hadnât wanted to face her own pastânot even for a second.
âAnd thatâs why youâre here?â he asked. âYou think you can atone for your sins by saving your cousin who reminds you so much of yourself?â
âNo,â she lied, her brow coming down. âAnd I donât know if she needs saving. She could be happily married.â
âYou keep saying that,â he countered. âOf course she needs saving. Or maybe he does. You cannot keep denying that this entire situation is untenable, and ruinous to your family and your cousinâs reputations and livelihoods.â
âAnd you seem to think that because I decide to approach this situation with a modicum of hopefulness that I do not see the whole picture. I promise you I do, because Iâve lived it. Do you think for a moment that I would have left Manchester if I hadnât been forced to, to save my family the constant embarrassment and explanations?â she said, her speech growing as hot as her face, but she was unable to stop it. âDo you think I would have spent the last decade living on my sisterâs charity working at the school if Iâd been able to have a season and marry? If the people back in Helmsley had any idea about that chapter of my life I would have nothing. Nothing at all. No matter how hard Iâve worked and how correct Iâve been. Tell me, Mr. Hudson, do you have to worry about your level of correctness at all times?â
âNo, I donât,â he bit out. âBut that doesnât mean I didnât have any hard lessons to learn from it.â
âLike what?â she asked.
âLike innocence and trust can be bargaining chips,â he replied. âThe biggest trumps in the deck.â
âYou are mixing your metaphors to the point I have no idea what youâre saying,â she replied. âBut that is to be expected from an attorney.â
âYou should know, your father is one.â
âWas one,â she said. âHe passed, two years ago.â
âOh,â was the reply. He sounded as if all the air had gone out of the room. âIâm sorry, I didnât know.â
âI didnât even get to attend the funeral. Imogene went for both of us,â she murmured, horrified at the tears welling full in her eyes. âI have to hope for the best, you see. Because what else is there?â
He reached out his hand and placed it over hers. She looked up at himâit was as if he was as shocked as she to discover their fingers touching.
She drew away, as if branded by fire.
âCan we talk about something else, please?â she said, her voice barely a whisper. âAnything else.â
She needed to be distracted. She needed to focus on something that was not this horrid pain.
âYou work at a school,â he said. It was a statement, not a question.
âI am the teacher at the vicarage school,â she said, her vision clearing at the thought of her students. âI have fourteen boys and girls, up to age twelve.â
âI would never have thought of you as a teacher.â
âWhy not? I love children.â
âI just . . . I never thought of you in that kind of servitude,â he said.
âItâs not servitude.