to be beaten, or to be sick.â
âDonât go making a habit of it.â
Volos said more quietly, âI have been watching for a long time. This is very much the usual sort of thing, is it not? But I am finding that there is a large difference between watching and living. Being hurt does not seem usual now that I am within this body.â
His voice softened on the last word, and Texas noticed how he moved a hand so that it touched his bruised lips and cheek, so that it lay where he could smell his own skin. Broken skin. The dirty old world sure knew how to welcome this one.
Texas asked, âWhy did you come?â
Volos pushed himself up on his fists and scowled at Texas in sudden challenge. âNot to be anybodyâs bloody savior, that is for certain! Not to help or guard or deliver or ransom or redeem. If you have any good-angel thoughts of me, give them up.â
Texas tried not to let the A-word shake him. A longtime cop knows how to keep cool and say soothing things in a good-olâ-boy drawl. âSon, I gave up thinking about the prize in the Cracker Jack box a long time ago. Lie down.â
Volos obeyed but asked, âWhy do you call me son?â
âBecause you seem young.â Texas realized he was being a fool. âMy mistake. Sorry.â
âDo not be sorry. I like it.â
âI guessâmy guess is youâve been around a lot longer than I have.â
âMillennia.â Volos spoke into the bedclothes, his voice so low and muffled that McCardle could barely hear it. âBut only to watch, to listen, to wait. I have never danced or been drunk or patted a dog or run on the beach or slept with a lover.â
Texas felt a hunch that the last item on the list was foremost in Volosâs mind, but he said only, âYou were not equipped for that sort of thing?â
âMade of ether and worth no more than a stray breeze is in this world.â Anger strengthened Volosâs voice. âTo be bodiless is to be less than a gnat. Those who swarm infinitely on the head of a pin, they are expendable.â Volos sighed and turned his head, speaking quietly again. âThe Supreme Being has been known to destroy whole choirs if their chanting does not please him. Thousands immolated at a glance.â
âBut Iâyou mean you could be killed?â
âAnnihilated. Nullified. Snuffed out like candle flame, leaving nothing behind. Now I can be killed.â Volos shrugged, grimacing from the pain that small gesture caused him. âBeing killed is better, I think.â
Texas studied him, worried. Wyoma had always said he fussed like a mother hen whenever a kid was sick, but he felt like he really should get this one to a doctor. That infected wing needed penicillinâbut how the hell was he going to get a doctor to treat Volos and keep his mouth shut? He had been around bureaucracy enough to know it ainât paranoia if itâs true: a phone call, and they would take the kid away, the FBI or the CIA or Immigration or somebody. And then it would be a long time till Volos danced or got drunk or patted a dog or ran on a beach or, Lord help him, slept with a lover.
The shower had done some good. Or maybe it was the most recent dose of aspirin, Texas thought. Anyway, it looked to him as if the kidâs temperature was down, because, among other things, Volosâs wings had turned fawn-colored, his eyes a quiet blue. The wing wound had opened and was oozing, thanks to hot compresses and maybe dumb luck. Texas had sprayed it with antiseptic, and felt relieved that he would not have to lance it. Wasnât sure how in Godâs name he would explain things to Volos if he had to lance it.
âYou hungry?â he asked after a while.
âHow would that feel?â
McCardle blinked, steadied himself, tried to explain. âSort of a pain in your gut.â
âEverything hurts, Texas.â
âI guess so. Well, you ought to