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went for broke. “I didn’t want to scare you off, Olivia. If what I believe is between us is real, then neither one of us will want it to be something brief. But it’s going to be a difficult initiation and I didn’t want you to think too much, to think too far ahead. And Olivia, I wouldn’t be here with you if there was another woman in my life who I was serious about.”
    He watched a myriad of emotions chase one another across Olivia’s face when he refuted her belief that he might have a significant other, and then she focused on the early part of his comment. “Initiation?”
    “Honey, I know what I want. I know what I need and how to get some of it from a woman. But I want it all, more than just from my casual subs. I want to give you everything you need and take back.
    Can you understand that?”
    Olivia was shaking and clearly fighting tears. He was pushing her hard, pushing her with honesty and it probably felt too fast. He also knew that, if he allowed her time, she would overthink things and never even try to understand what she had denied all those years. And she probably did trust him, crazy as it might sound to her, or she wouldn’t be here with him, now. At the very least she was intrigued.
    She wouldn’t be so sure that she trusted herself, however, and that alone would make her flee if he didn’t push her.
    “Olivia, let’s have our dinner and you can ask me all those questions I see you have,” Cameron urged.
    She nodded and ducked her head to dab at her eyes. When she looked at him again, she was composed and apparently calm. The wait staff brought their meals shortly thereafter and it was a welcome distraction.
    “What do you mean by subs?” she asked after swallowing a small mouthful of sirloin. “Is that like Doms and subs?” 38
     
    Cameron hid a smile. Olivia had done some research. He wondered how much to tell her, and then went for broke again.
    Communication was the most important thing in any relationship, especially D/s relationships.
    “I’m a trained Dom,” he agreed. “I was in training when I met you and spent time in the clubs when I went back to the city for R & R.
    That’s where I met Jennifer.”
    Olivia looked like she had tasted something spoiled. “Can we not talk about Jennifer, please?”
    “Anyway,” he continued, “I want to initiate you.”
    “What does that mean, exactly?” Olivia asked cautiously.
    “In a nutshell, I plan to dominate you sexually, Olivia. It’s what I do, what I need. I plan to give you more sexual pleasure than you’ve ever known. There’s a fine line between pleasure and pain, and I will help you walk that.”
    She couldn’t hide the shudder that wracked her body, and Cameron slid closer, wrapping his arm around her shoulder, tipping her face up with his other hand as he did so. He looked deeply into her eyes, and recognized fear, tempered with arousal.
    “I won’t hurt you, honey, at least not in the way that you might think. You know you can trust me.”
    “Can we talk specifics?” she asked timidly.
    “Come upstairs with me, Olivia, and I’ll show you. Give me your trust. Don’t overthink things.”
     
     
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    It was like she had entered another dimension. She had gotten up this morning with a sense of expectation. She thought she was writing a new chapter in her life by going to her house and then to the golf course. And now she was considering having sex with a man she had resolutely put out of her mind and her heart twelve years ago. No, not having sex, but having dominant sex with him. She found she wanted
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    someone to take her choice away, to simply sweep her up into the experience. It called to her. She was tired of looking after everything and everyone, tired of being in control, tired of keeping up appearances and living a lie. Maybe just once she could let loose and say to hell with the consequences. A small warning voice in her head pointed out that Cameron had talked about an experiment, a