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for it.”
    Jesse laughs. “In the best way.”
    I nod. “So, names. Let’s do the ‘K’ names like we talked about, but ones that aren’t so common.”
    “I like that idea. Do you have any in mind?”
    “Um… what about Kaid.” I go over how I’d like to spell it and Jesse’s eyes light up.
    “Yes, that I like. Middle name?”
    “Lorenzo? After gampy’s brother?” I suggest. His mouth goes hard for just a second, but I see it. Now what?
    “Kaid Lorenzo. One down, three to go,” he says with a laugh.
    “You pick,” I tell him.
    “Shit, I don’t know, Luce,” he says, running a hand through his hair. “What if I pick a name and it doesn’t fit?”
    “Can we go to the NICU? See them and decide?”
    “I’m not sure they’ll let you move around yet, but we can ask.”
    I press the call button and get ready to meet my babies.

    An eternity later, after throwing a fit to get my way—I’m not ashamed to say I used tears, and after tons of tubes are removed—including a catheter… gah—I’m being wheeled to the NICU. I’ve still got my IVs in and they’re hanging from the pole on the wheelchair, but oh my god does it feel good to have all that other crap off of me. Catheter—gah!
    “You doing okay?” Jesse asks.
    “It’s not the most comfortable thing to be sitting after being cut wide open like that and then sewn shut.” I feel kind of hollowed out. If I’d had to have my uterus removed, it’d feel so much worse.
    “I’m sorry, Cupcake. Is there anything I can do?”
    “Not really. It’s a good kind of pain.”
    “Huh?” he asks, looking at me confused.
    I snicker. “I’ll take this pain and have it be a good pain because we got them from it.” I point at the babies through the window.
    His expression softens, his emotions shining in his eyes. “Yeah. Mini-us’s.”
    I nod. “Can we go in?”
    “You can,” the nurse tells us, “but you’ll need to wash your hands and wear scrubs.”
    “I can handle that.”

    It doesn’t take long for us to get washed and scrubbed—heh, see what I did there? Oh God. I’m starting to think like Xander.
    “Oh, Jesse.” Tears flood my eyes as I see my babies—really see them, for the first time. “So tiny,” I whisper, unable to tear my gaze from them. Tufts of black hair on all four heads.
    “Baby boy number one is Kaid Lorenzo,” Jesse tells the NICU nurse and she writes it down. “We’re deciding on the rest right now.”
    She smiles and nods. “Just let me know.”
    “What do you think, Jesse? Another K for the first name.”
    “How about Killian?”
    “I really like that. What about a middle name?” I ask.
    “This is harder than it seems,” Jesse states with a chuckle.
    I nod. “It’s their names for the rest of their lives. This is important.”
    “Matthew? Killian Matthew?”
    “Oh, I really like that a lot.”
    He narrows his eyes. “It’s not for M. Shadows, woman.”
    I snort.
    He points at me. “It’s not.”
    “Okay. Sure. Yep,” I smirk.
    He sighs.
    I grin. “Thank you.”
    “Cupcake, don’t thank me for loving you.”
    Tears fall and Jesse hands me some tissues.
    “I’ll need to wash my hands again,” I say between sniffles.
    “You pick the next. I’m all out of K names,” Jesse tells me.
    “Oh boy. What about Konnor with a K?”
    Jesse nods. “Manly name. I like it.”
    I snicker. “Middle name…”
    “Anthony.”
    I look to Jesse in surprise and delight. “That’s so perfect.”
    He nods. “Your dad’s a great man.”
    “Konnor Anthony. It’s perfect.”
    “Girl name? Look how tiny she is, Luce. Her little lips sucking.”
    I can’t help but grin. Their red wrinkled skin, ten fingers, ten toes—I checked—and button noses. “They’re all so beautiful.”
    “How about Kierah,” Jesse suggests.
    “I love that!” We pause, just looking at our children—our children! Reality begins to set in. We have four babies. We have four babies. We have four babies. Oh boy, oh